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just cut me some slack - Thursday, March 26, 2009 @ 9:38 PM

i'm supposed to put off blogging till tomorrow
but i need to settle some stuff
so here am i

i just got a damn harsh scolding from my mother
the camera incident, what else?
well. the scolding was even worse. because she found out on her own.
and it's not just scolding.
it's beating too.
she gave up caning me. i think the cane was about to break already.
she used the hanger.
but i think my skin is far too thick.
pinching is a better alternative to her.
now i have a few red stripes and spots on my calves.
hope they disappear by tomorrow
much as i love scars, i don't really like these kind.

this isn't considered as child abuse right?

i've cried at least one litre of tears.
now my eyes are like super red.
and i can't even see the screen properly.

but luckily, this time's caning isn't the worse ever.
my worst one was over exam marks, i guess.
the cane marks were like red. some bled. the scars stayed there for like a week.
but they were on the upper thigh.
didn't really matter.
and they hurt like hell. (pardon the vulgarity, i couldn't describe it any other way)

so, my life sucks.
it isn't the perfect life that anyone would have wished for.

now, what?
people are opposing me about senior craziness?

how many students are there in cedar who are senior crazy.
in my class - 6 (including me)
but then, i think me and pling are the most obvious ones.

so these people.
and that's my class only.
why don't anyone object them from doing so?

is senior craziness an offence?
did they set it up as a school rule?

well, what is wrong with it?

senior crazy is basically idolism.
and idolism is defined as loving and admiring so much that you think that he/she is perfect.
it isn't murder.
it isn't robbery.
it isn't terrorist.

well, humans are all equal, that's what people say.
so all humans should be treated equally too.
and that's the reason no one should be worshipped.
but apparently, i don't worship seniors.

stalking seniors is freaky.
i don't stalk seniors.
i admit i've thought of it before.
but i'm not doing it.

stalking senior's stuff.
i swear the shoe is a pure accident.
i really wanted to buy a 'similar' shoe not the exact same model.
oh well. i'd already bought it. and it's nice.

on the good side of senior craz-ism. (not that anyone would have thought of)

seniors motivate me.
seniors make me better.

i dance. i stretch. i study.
that's what i do.

with seniors,
i dance better. i stretch further. i study harder.
they are the invisible force behind me that pushes me forward.
they motivate me.
classic example: stretching.
what do you think?
a miracle has pushed the lousiest stretcher in sec1 into a girl who can nearly do a front split?
it isn't.
it's my hard work.
my hard work that i put it.
because of seniors.
just by looking at them, i feel the need to do better.
do better.
for them.
so what is wrong?
seniors are some sort of self-motivation.
isn't that good?

amanda makes me stretch further.
shaomin makes me study harder.

so idolism isn't bad.
as long as it isn't out of control.

ok. fine. i'll keep it down.
but it's their last year.
i only have until 14th april with them.
2and a half more weeks.

it's my last chance.

ok, so maybe after SYF, you want me to stop senior-obessing.
fine.
i'll try.
and i'll become a completely different person.
i'm no longer algae.
i'm back to elgenia.
i'm not longer fun-loving, enthusiastic and hilarious. and bimbo. and noisu.
i'll become emo, studious, quiet and boring.
algae will cease to exsist.
you'll just see a girl with a horny book shoved up her nose.
and the mp3 plucked into her ears.
after dance, she'll go straight home.
after school, she'll go straight home.
at home, it's just music and studies.
she won't turn on msn.
life is meaningless to her.
without one of the most dearest people in her life, life seems to have crumbled down, withered , lost and thrown away.
so, seriously.
throwing away life.
why hadn't i thought of that?

i've always loved the idea of scars, car accidents and rape.

and that's a way to improve life.
at least it's not that boring.

another thing i'm tackling.
vulgarities.
ok. i admit, i'm slightly on the vulgar side.
i'll change.
it's just that i don't see the reason behind why i should.
words are just words.
after all.

respecting seniors.
ok. maybe i've been really rude calling them bitches.
so a public apology on my blog?
i don't mind.

to dancer:
it's not that you don't want to bother. but the attitude you give us makes us demoralized and depressed. life is already very hard. and you're making it harder. and it's as if you're telling us that we're really hopeless and that there's nothing in life that we can do right.

this post is really long.
actually, i wanted to explain why i think i've stopped obessing over wenmin.
becuase i don't fine someone perfect if she's anti-algae.
so maybe, dancers.
it's a load off your mind.

my life sucks so much, i don't wish to continute the torture anymore.
it's just something that brings light to tomorrow, making me want to continute.
but when the candle's gone, life is gone too.
i'll be plunged into darkness.
i'll be lost with no one to guide me.
why is my life so hard?

i'd just need 20% from amanda, 20% of shaomin, and the world for me would be such a better place.

and i wouldn't be crapping around here.

this is the second post ever that i cried while typing.
but this has the most tears ever.
i'd never thought that i had so much salt water in me.

it's a choice.
which part of me do you want?

algae.

or

elgenia.

you can't get the best of both worlds.
you see, even hannah montana has life easier than me.

to life:
just cut me some slack.
please.

algae/elgenia.

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(pardon the vulgarity, i couldn't describe it any other way) so, my life sucks. it isn't the perfect life that anyone would have wished for. now, what? people are opposing me about senior craziness? how many students are there in cedar who are senior crazy. in my class - 6 (including me) but then, i think me and pling are the most obvious ones. so these people. and that's my class only. why don't anyone object them from doing so? is senior craziness an offence? did they set it up as a school rule? well, what is wrong with it? senior crazy is basically idolism. and idolism is defined as loving and admiring so much that you think that he/she is perfect. it isn't murder. it isn't robbery. it isn't terrorist. well, humans are all equal, that's what people say. so all humans should be treated equally too. and that's the reason no one should be worshipped. but apparently, i don't worship seniors. stalking seniors is freaky. i don't stalk seniors. i admit i've thought of it before. but i'm not doing it. stalking senior's stuff. i swear the shoe is a pure accident. i really wanted to buy a 'similar' shoe not the exact same model. oh well. i'd already bought it. and it's nice. on the good side of senior craz-ism. (not that anyone would have thought of) seniors motivate me. seniors make me better. i dance. i stretch. i study. that's what i do. with seniors, i dance better. i stretch further. i study harder. they are the invisible force behind me that pushes me forward. they motivate me. classic example: stretching. what do you think? a miracle has pushed the lousiest stretcher in sec1 into a girl who can nearly do a front split? it isn't. it's my hard work. my hard work that i put it. because of seniors. just by looking at them, i feel the need to do better. do better. for them. so what is wrong? seniors are some sort of self-motivation. isn't that good? amanda makes me stretch further. shaomin makes me study harder. so idolism isn't bad. as long as it isn't out of control. ok. fine. i'll keep it down. but it's their last year. i only have until 14th april with them. 2and a half more weeks. it's my last chance. ok, so maybe after SYF, you want me to stop senior-obessing. fine. i'll try. and i'll become a completely different person. i'm no longer algae. i'm back to elgenia. i'm not longer fun-loving, enthusiastic and hilarious. and bimbo. and noisu. i'll become emo, studious, quiet and boring. algae will cease to exsist. you'll just see a girl with a horny book shoved up her nose. and the mp3 plucked into her ears. after dance, she'll go straight home. after school, she'll go straight home. at home, it's just music and studies. she won't turn on msn. life is meaningless to her. without one of the most dearest people in her life, life seems to have crumbled down, withered , lost and thrown away. so, seriously. throwing away life. why hadn't i thought of that? i've always loved the idea of scars, car accidents and rape. and that's a way to improve life. at least it's not that boring. another thing i'm tackling. vulgarities. ok. i admit, i'm slightly on the vulgar side. i'll change. it's just that i don't see the reason behind why i should. words are just words. after all. respecting seniors. ok. maybe i've been really rude calling them bitches. so a public apology on my blog? i don't mind. to dancer: it's not that you don't want to bother. but the attitude you give us makes us demoralized and depressed. life is already very hard. and you're making it harder. and it's as if you're telling us that we're really hopeless and that there's nothing in life that we can do right. this post is really long. actually, i wanted to explain why i think i've stopped obessing over wenmin. becuase i don't fine someone perfect if she's anti-algae. so maybe, dancers. it's a load off your mind. my life sucks so much, i don't wish to continute the torture anymore. it's just something that brings light to tomorrow, making me want to continute. but when the candle's gone, life is gone too. i'll be plunged into darkness. i'll be lost with no one to guide me. why is my life so hard? i'd just need 20% from amanda, 20% of shaomin, and the world for me would be such a better place. and i wouldn't be crapping around here. this is the second post ever that i cried while typing. but this has the most tears ever. i'd never thought that i had so much salt water in me. it's a choice. which part of me do you want? algae. or elgenia. you can't get the best of both worlds. you see, even hannah montana has life easier than me. to life: just cut me some slack. please. algae/elgenia. back to the top?	affiliates ♥Aksone♥ ♥Aliah♥ ♥Aishu♥ ♥Atikah♥ ♥Amadea♥ ♥Amanda♥ ♥Anita♥ ♥Beverly♥ ♥Boonboonhuihui♥ ♥Carin♥ ♥Celastine♥ ♥Celine♥ ♥Celine♥ ♥Chewan♥ ♥Christina♥ ♥Clara♥ ♥Conny♥ ♥Crystal♥ ♥Daphne♥ ♥Dayna♥ ♥Denise♥ ♥Eugenia♥ ♥Evangelyn♥ ♥Flower♥ ♥Geraldine♥ ♥Haining♥ ♥Huijie♥ ♥Huiying♥ ♥Jelaine♥ ♥Irene♥ ♥Iznayye♥ ♥Jarule♥ ♥Jeremy♥ ♥Jiaying♥ ♥Jolene♥ ♥Kimberly♥ ♥Kor Woong♥ ♥Krystal♥ ♥Laura♥ ♥Lingyi♥ ♥Lynnette♥ ♥Maika♥ ♥Mardiana♥ ♥Minying♥ ♥Nadene♥ ♥Nadiah♥ ♥Natasha♥ ♥Nicole♥ ♥Miss Claire♥ ♥Pamphila♥ ♥Plingy♥ ♥Sarah♥ ♥Vanessa♥ ♥Xinya♥ ♥Yingyi♥	credits Layout: Nic ole Inspiration: Taylor Swift Color Codes: Html Color Codes monthly archive » July 2008 » August 2008 » September 2008 » October 2008 » November 2008 » December 2008 » January 2009 » February 2009 » March 2009 » April 2009 » May 2009 » June 2009 » July 2009 » August 2009 » September 2009 » October 2009 » November 2009 » December 2009 » January 2010 » February 2010 » March 2010 » April 2010 » May 2010 » June 2010 » July 2010 » August 2010 » September 2010 » October 2010 » November 2010 » December 2010 » January 2011 daily archive » 100% cuteness » i love whitey » on the wrong side of life » it's good to know that you're around » i'm owing and missing alot of things. » i know but i cant change. » BAKING DAY! » the little good church girl » pink prefects. » sorry.common tests.shopping.damn