Summersnow

- Thursday, January 28, 2010 @ 8:09 PM

the school should realize that level of stress(x-axis)and grades of student(y-axis)work like that.

yeahsure, the sch council will go yomdadada on why they give us pressure cause stress works, makes us study, grades go up and all that shit. but dude, there's a maximum point, a turning point where stress no longer gives you positive results.
like what, my classmates are falling ill one at a time and hello, sch council-
cca+homework+studying=not enough sleep+low immunity+more vunerable to sickness=miss sch+got to catch up=vicious cycle repeats itself.

P.S i realized how canadians actually survive. they have like what, 12.1years is their average schooling per person.
P.P.S i want to live in bukina faso(HAHA,like where the hell is that place), their average schooling years is like a frickin' 0.1?! and plus, their life expectancy is 48.2. even better, you die earlier=less trouble
P.P.P.S all this info are coming from the geog ppt.
P.P.P.P.S don't you think the graph i posted is like damn pretty, i'll nvr be able to draw something like that. which explains everyone's laughter at my math homework):

studied with zhihui+michelle+the other michelle(chia)+vanessa+xinting today,
HAHAHAH, it was an absolute failure.

'HURRY UP DO. YOU TAKE WHAT, 20MINUTES TO DO ONE PHYSICS QUESTION?! I ALREADY FINISHED MY CHEM WORKSHEET.'
that was what i was screaming at vanessa half the time. i swear, teaching her is like burning more calories than the race across america and increases the chances of getting cardiac arrest by like 3000percent.

okay, bottom line = fun.
and cause the sch thinks that pushing student to the verge of the grand canyon is such a fun thing to do by giving a few moles worth of homework and tests that adds on to the pressure, i have like no time to blog, no time to play the guitar, to time to catch with my friends, no time eat, no time to practice dance, no time to listen to taylor swift.
no fcuking time to get a life.

'HAHA,YOU HAVE A MOLE OF HAIR AND I HAVE A MOLE OF MONEY.'
okay, sorry. i swear stress is like driving me up the wall and i'm like being ultra high on the way back home with vanessa as i was forcing ppl to sing you belong with me and discussing about sugar rush and werewolf rabbits on the bus. HAHAHAHAH.

the chinese comprehension said(or at least that's what i thought it was cause i kind of didn't know how to read the words):
giving up your dreams is one of the bravest things in the world.
but giving it up without any regrets is even harder.
but if you're going to chase your dreams at the expense of yourself and put the hearts of the people around you on the line, then it's not worth it at all.
woah, for the first time i actually thought chinese made sense. well, it kind of made more sense when i wrote it out in english.
nvm, point is: i've given up my dream. and hell, i'm not regretting it. thank god.

AGAIN, screw school.
i refuse to do my english comprehension and redraw my graphs. the sch can't force me to do whatever they want cause i'm not a bloody puppet nor are they my puppeters.

perfect uniform+perfect grades+perfect leadership positions+perfect morals = sad life.
happy kid = happy life.
and since life is so short, why torture ourselves.

yknow what, i think i'll take zhihui+michelle's advice, we should play first then study. at most olevels are like next friggin year, we can always use the three days before the paper to study.

goodmorning school, this is what you have pushed me till.

<:)

-A-

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- Wednesday, January 27, 2010 @ 9:07 PM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NATASHA!
to my adopted sister/cheer vice-captain/dance senior/instructor,
you can now watch a NC16 movie without the guilt of sneaking in<:)
heh,&thanks to this picture i can finally picture you eating food.
&you should take a picture of yourself using the computer or else i'll just picture you infront of the screen with your specs and two fingers typing slowly on the keyboard.HAHA.
natasha owes me a birthday hug>:( and we didn't take a picture together>:(

okay, there's supposed to be a photo spam of natasha's unglam moments but argh, no time):
heh, i'll leave the long birthday letter to her real, paper, solid birthday card which like what, it'll take me alot of time to do and time is such a precious resource in upper sec):

-A-

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- Tuesday, January 26, 2010 @ 7:07 PM

'BUT I'M A UNICORN!!!!!'
HAHAHAHA celestine and natasha labelled me as unicorn for some unidentified reason
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XINYUN HAS ALBINISM!!!!!!
HAHAHAHA,like what, after today's bio lesson which i didn't pay attention to and reading the less-than-half-a-page of the textbook, i diagonsed xinyun with albinism:DDDD
i swear i'm made to be a doctor!!!! HAHAHAHAH.
anyway,
#1. xinyun's cheeks and underside of her arms has like a MRT-line worth of blood vessels which is caused by lack fo pigment in the skin and thus blood vessels can be seen more easily.
#2. xinyun's eyes aren't BLACK. they're amber! like the stupid edward cullen in twilight that kind of i-just-murdered-a-bear-for-blood that kind of color.
#3. xinyun has brown hair!!! lack of pigment again.
#4. xinyun gets sunburnt really easily!!!
HEH,like seriously. does she rly have albinism?
HAHAHA,if she does have this mild form of albinism, then i'm like damn awesome
:DDDDDDDD

EVIL vampires fall in (L) with me then VOMIT BLOOD and die.
HAHAHA.
xinyun+natasha+celestine+me(the vampire academy fans)were like discussing how the ultra HOT vampire, dimintri would fall in love with me. HAHAHA,and vomit blood and die!
&i'm a unicorn!
:DDDD

'SHI HUI, DO YOU HAVE ALOT OF SEC3 FANS?'
omg, can you imagine laoshi actually asked natasha that.
thanks to us.
HILARIOUS.

'the curry molecules will travel from the curry to the bread through diffusion....'
'when i swallow the rice, the salivary amalyse will break down the starch into maltose and as it travels down the....'
then my mom asked me to shut the hell up and eat.
HAHAHAHAHA.like seriously, school has gone straight into my head that i'm studying bio over dinner.

ahhhh, i missed the potong pasir mrt today and went all the way to kovan>:(
WHY,
cause i was thinking about natasha's present!!!!
HAHAHA,natasha, if you're reading this, don't scold me for not giving you your present on time:(
even xinyun knows how stressed i am about this.
>:(

my mom's a cedar volleyballer.
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHA,like so what the hell right.

i have 10293473929 things to do):
of which 99.8% deals with studies(screw cedar)

-A-

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): - Sunday, January 24, 2010 @ 6:57 PM

WALAU.MY BROTHER IS LIKE DAMN MEAN. HE TOTALLY DANGLED THIS CHIP AND DALE THINGY THAT HIS TUTOR GOT FOR HIM IN FRONT OF ME. LIKE WHAT THE HELL, HE KNOWS I LIKE CHIP AND DALE AND HE REFUSES TO GIVE ME. AND HE HAD TO SHOW IT TO ME))))))))))):

fyi, for the childhood deprieved kids out there, chip and dale is some chipmunk cartoon. which is ADORABLE.

'is christopher columbus chinese?'
HAHAHAHAHAHA
this is coming from my younger brother who knows more european cities than the sec4s who are taking Os this year, can name south african countries that even i cannot pronounce, recites friggin chinese idioms that i can't place(well, you can't blame me for it, i'm in CMI-class for chinese.HAHA)and he thinks that the founder of america is a friggin CHINESE.

christopher columbus is spanish right? well, at least i don't think he's a chinese/indian/malay/singaporean/ASIAN.
HAHAHAH.

my brother just wasted one of my purple post-its and pasted above my lips cause i called him gay and he read the above paragragh.YOU SUCKA.
i want that chip and dale thingy))))):

ohwell, i think i'm spoilt.
HAHA,a first coming from me, huh.
it's like comparing myself to part-time housewife xinting, i don't even make my bed or wash the dishes.
and my mom wanted to buy me an iphone just now, like WOAH, but i rejected it cause i'm scared like rly duper scared that i'll lose it within 1week and my mom will totally KARRRUMBA like some volcano on me >:(
speaking of which, i haven't told her that i lost my specs yet. HEH,i'm awesome at lying.

AHBLABLABLA,spent the whole day out: breakfast at IKEA, lunch at serangoon gardens, afternoon shopping for cny clothes(failure) and hanging out at my favourite stationery store.
woohoo, my arms are aching from being a nice kid and helping my mom carry her bags cause she totally sponsored my 10++ spree worth of post-its and color paper at popular.
dang, and i haven't finished my math+chinese+ss,
and ohshit, tomorrow's a monday.
D:

HEY YOU.
i don't care what you're facing now, my dear, but you're not the kind of girl who will stoop down to whatever problems you're facing. plus you're so tall, surely you can crush everything else. okay i know i'm a sucker at counselling people. but i rly rly don't want to see the emo side of you.
please.

I NEED STUDY DATES LA, LIKE SERIOUSLY.
FAILING AMATH POP QUIZ IS A BIG DEAL DUDE WHEN XINTING CAN GET ALL CORRECT):
or maybe i should just admit that i'm a dumbass.

-A-

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goodmorning - Friday, January 22, 2010 @ 7:30 PM

that's the graph for x-axis(time) and y-axis(my math grades).

ironic huh, that i used math to symbolise how much i suck at it.
0.5 out of 4, or technically zero cause teachers don't believe in half marks.
like hell, i got a frickin' zero for my amath pop quiz and i didn't hand it in to miss chin cause i'm scared she'll lash at me like a dog whip.

today was ohmygod-we-totally-pissed-miss-chin-off-and-we-need-to-think-of-a-plan-to-fix-it-like-prefably-NOW.
the class totally made miss chin snap, roll her eyes and walk off and we were feeling damned guilty about it. spent the last few minutes of reading to discuss on making it up for chin.
decided on 'GOOD MORNINGSSSSSS MISS CHIN' in the super enthu voice which kind of failed cause we were laughing through it. ohwell, i thought miss chin was happy though.
miss chin freaks me out in a good way-thinking of her makes me think that at least some teachers in cedar has a working wardrobes and the thought of aftermath from her motivates to continue graph-ing in the middle of the night.
unlike mdm tan, she's like a bad horror movie. blood and gore included.

'you girls are waterbottlesssss'
that's how miss chin chooses to describe us.

'you got to stop lending books to natasha so she can study,'
HAHA,aliah.
my vampire academy is with denise
my frostbite with xinyun
my shadow kiss with xinyun
my blood promise with natasha
woah, i can set up the second cedar library already.

'last night, i dreamt of golgi bodies, rough endoplasmic reticulum and vesicles! and that i was one of the stupid proteins being transported out of the cell.'
this is the result of having incompetent biology teachers and you have to self-study the whole bloody damned molecular genetics and like what the hell, you study so much you end up dreaming about cells in the middle of night.
ughhh, i swear i'll be damned grateful to the next senior who offers me help. *aliah, hint hint.

'baby, are you down up down up down... up... down...'
HAHA,cheap trills. me&rach&yingyi were like singing like malfunctioning radios on the long, scorching, torturous walk back to the train station.
this is what cedarians are reduced to.

okay, i need to revisit my inner blonde with a trip out to orchad)))))):
i miss somerset 313, ARGH, the forever21((((((:
let's hope i can do my cny shopping there.

okay, i need to start setting up study dates for next week alrd.

-A-

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screw school. - Thursday, January 21, 2010 @ 6:42 PM

my mom's worried.

lately, ive been really hyperactive. in my sleep. have you watched new moon? did you see the part where Bella cringes and withers and screams in her sleep. my mom says i'm like that.

i'm freaky, huh.

ugh. i'm not supposed to be blogging. i have graphs to draw, chinese compositions to write, ss questions to answer and biology to revise. gosh, did I ever mention: I self-study because my teachers are like sleeping pills. anyone who doesn't understand THE MOLE can come ask me:DDD cause i've got an awesome sec4 tutor who's wayyy better than my chem teacher. heh, in the meantime, i'm figuring the stupid bloody mRNAs and tRNAs out.

i(L)chinese lessons,
cause me and simin pretends to be ahpeks in the void deck reading newspaper and trying to find the winning 4D number in the newspaper, gave up and asked laoshi.
'LAOSHI, where's the winning 4D number in the newspaper ah'. HAHA, and this was like what, when she was explaining some crap which i obviously wasn't listening.
'TODAY WEDNESDAY LA, NO 4D. AND WHAT ARE YOU AND SIMIN DOING?' total embarrasment and failure at being ahpeks.

did you read the newspaper today,
people who put their responsibilites before pleasure are more likely to feel regret in their lives.
UH-HUH,is this counted as a reason to not do my math homework cause 'i will be more likely to suffer from emotional breakdown caused by regret?' heh.
&fyi, studying chem and bio is a PASSION, not a chore. for me at least.
pssst. who's an awesome enough person to let me copy your bio notes?

bzzzzz. i don't steal/hook up with people's girlfriends)))))):
gosh, the only thing i steal is what, peixuan's graph notes to copy?!

ahhhh, i hate school):
surviving on 4hours of sleep, avogardo's number worth of homework, to-study pile as high as everest and dance, dance, dance and more and dance stupid fcuking relationship problems weigh me down.

yes, nicole, i owe you your specifically-requested birthday present which you know the price alrd.
and i owe alot of other people their bday presents)))))):

i swear, popular should award me with like what highest-spender ever kind of an award. this week, i've been to popular thrice(and i'm gng again tmr)and i've spent like what 29384984bucks
popular sucks my money):

yknow what, i'm not gng to ditch OAC, cause i'm not gng to let that bitch think that i'm gng down without a fight. hey, i'm an organism born with chlorophyll and has survived more than billions of years and you think it'll just take YOU to bring me down. dream on, bitch. want to make my life horrible? go ahead. cause this time, i'm not holding back anything.

'our school motto is to nurture leaders of character'
screw the school.
i'm gng to ask all my younger friends,
'do you want to wear a 1300s length of skirt, you know the kind when you can't see your ankles, football socks, ballerina's hair?'
'do you want to be so stressed that you breakdown every week, so much homework you get eye bags, so much commitments and a whole pile of shit when you can't free yourself to think about anything else, be under the teaching of students who are so fcuking biased and condemmned you like hilter and the jews?'
'do you want to feel as though you're so frickin' insignificant because the school council thinks that only smart people or those wearing special badges and black shoes can make it in this world. or else you're just worse than pond scum.'
'DO YOU WANT TO THROW AWAY YOUR LIFE?'
if you answered no, to any of the following questions, then don't join c to the e to the d-a-r.
and since chinese new year's coming up, isn't a wonderful time to publicise for our dear principal .
'our motto is to get everyone with their 6pointers and the band1 school award'
'and no we dont care about anything else'

THANKYOU(this is a reply to your personal message)

greypaper,HAHA.
remember guangda,*scoffs*
i miss the four of us, can we go out LIKE REALLY someday.

-A-

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- Tuesday, January 19, 2010 @ 5:14 PM

ELGO.
krystal and bimbolette made this new name for me and they think it's very sexy.
HAHAHAHA.

if i get a buck for every hour of insufficient sleep i get, i'll be having avogardo's number worth of cash now.

-A-

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iiiiiiii - Monday, January 18, 2010 @ 10:27 PM

UGHHHHH): I FEEL LIKE A FCUKING RETARD WATCHING THOSE 5YEAR OLD DO LIKE WHAT 8 PIROUTTES AND SPLIT AND JUMP AND TURN AND TWIST AS THOUGH THEY'RE MADE OF JELLY))))): I WANT MY FLEXIBILITY BACK. BEFORE ARTS FEST, I MUST TRAIN TRAIN TRAIN TO DO LEFT LEG FRONT SPLIT AND YES, MY SIDE SPLIT WHICH I DEPROVED LIKE 4945837238 PERCENT):

AHHH,i have no idea how to jazz and watching the last few hundreds of youtube vids(even though i was playing taylor swift's dancing with the stars at least two dozen times and it has nothing to do with jazz!!!)didn't really help. i'm duet-ing with yixin and we are both as lost as chickens in a shopping center.

i need a study date for tomorrow and a stretching dateD:

bitch.

-A-

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DNA - @ 7:23 PM

AH.I LOST MY TAYLOR SWIFT MINI-CARDS)))))):
IF ANYONE FINDS THEM PLEASE RETURN IT TO MEEE.

'if y'all talk somemore, then i tell natasha tan arrh!'
HAHA,laoshi's hilarious. she's like using natasha to threathen me/simin/mich/HAHA,idk who else.

heh,today's chinese was the best lesson the whole day.
i hugged jynnlin, staggered back, tripped over celeste's shoes and fell onto the floor. in front of the whole class. MAJOR EMBARRASMENT.
HAHA,and laoshi keeps on staring at me and simin cause we talk 99% during the lesson thus the threat above.

DNA=DENISE AND ALGAE
arghhh, bio's getting into my head.
HAHA,spent half of dance singing 'i want your D, D-N-A' in the bad romance tune. tralalala- everyone thinks i'm weird but i think deoxyribonucleic acid is even weirder. bio lecture was a complete failure cause i was busy mumbling to haseena like 'i should remove 12 pairs of chromosones from my every cell and i'll be a banana' and praying hard we wouldn't be asked questions by mdm wong.

-A-

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fearless - Sunday, January 17, 2010 @ 10:19 PM

JUST LOOK AT THAT SMILE!!!!!

I SWEAR I'VE NEVER LOVED A GIRL LIKE HER BEFORE(YES,CEDARIANS INCLUDED).

OKAY, I KNOW ITS GOING TO COME OUT LIKE THOSE PEOPLE WHO SWOON AND SIGH OVER KOREANS. TAYLOR SWIFT BEATS THEM HANDS DOWN.

LIKE SERIOUSLY, CAN YOU WRITE/CO-WRITE TWO WHOLE ALBUMS WORTH OF SONGS(SHE FRICKIN' WROTE LOVE STORY ON HER BED WITHIN TWENTY MINUTES?!!!!)AND WRITE FOR OTHER PEOPLE AS WELL(KELLIE PICKLER!!!) ORGANIZE YOUR WHOLE AMERICA TOUR YOURSELF. A FRICKIN' NINETEEN YEAR OLD. SHE CAN PLAY THE CLARINEET(NOT RLY,HAHA), KEYBOARD, GUITAR AND SING DAMN WELL. SHE HAS 39484572IDEAS ON HOW TO ENTERTAIN PEOPLE LIKE ME(HER FANS)LIKE TRALALALA, AND SHE'S JUST LIKE ONE OF US.
A HUMAN!
A BLOND ONE, SOMEMORE.

AND SHE DOESNT SCREW LIFE UP LIKE BRITNEY. SHE'S GORGEOUS. SHE'S COMPASSIONATE. SHE TREATS HER FANS AS THOUGH THEY'RE LONG-LOST FANS. AHHH, I WANT TO FLY TO AUSSIE TO SEE HER THIS YEAR)))))):

HAHA,the taylor-swift-induced hallucination and hyperventilation came through when i was being bored and popped my t-swift platinum edition dvd into my comp and WOOHOO, IT WORKED. like after 1 whole month of futile effort to get the bloody thing to run, it friggggggin worked :DDDD so i was watching the footage, music vids, on the set with t-swift(!!!!!) and her fearless tour. walau, i was like crying halfway through the dvd and my mom thought i was crazy, i wasn't even watching some soapy korean drama, i was watching this 20year old blond kid being interviewed and the director shoving everyone around on the set of love story.

hmmm, so this is a whole I-LOVE-TAYLOR-SWIFT post.
no one every in my life has influenced me like this, to pick up guitar to play like a crazy mad alien(the skin from my three fingers dropped today so i have rly rly tender skin which bled again just now when i attempted to play the guitar with injured fingers)and to continue moving on with life even though i just feel like breaking down and not doing anything. her songs relate to me so much i feel as though i wrote them.
SOUNDS CLICHE, but true.

okay, i'm a happy girl today - had an ice-cream fight just now with my bro. we were like totally sumo-wrestling with a tub of ice cream on the floor. at the end i had what, ice cream on my ass and nose. HAHA, kids.

'i want to be ben10 when i grow up.'
'don't be ridiculous.'
'you're the one who wants to be an avatar and a guitarist when you grow up. so what's wrong. people can have dreams you know.'
for times like this, being immature is one of the wisest things in the world.

i wished i can be a REAL kid.
like that day on my way to sch, saw this cedar primary kid blasting love story and teardrops on my guitar on her phone.
HAHA, actually i was on the opposite side of the road but i heard taylor's angelic voice so i crossed over.
and the girl was like singing her heart out even though she's somewhat tone deaf and that there's this crazy 15year old stalking her from behind. she's the kind that doesn't give a damn about what's around her. she only wants to be happy.
i also want to be THAT kid.

This love is difficult but it's real
I'm not a princess This ain't a fairytale
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night
Somebody tells you they love you, you're gonna believe them
If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
But I don't believe you baby like I did before
I miss screaming and fighting and kissing in the rain
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
You take my hand and drag me headfirst,
FEARLESS.

-A-

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- @ 11:40 AM

GOOD MORNING WORLD.
i swear i'm not going to write any more emo posts about how i'm going to commit suicide just because i didn't become an OAI or get an A1 for chem.
HAHA.

cause my sister convinced me that,
life sucks, so just get over with it.
heh, and she tells me there's no need to study at all(even though i think she's jealous that i'm smarter than her)
btw, she failed three out of her 6subjects in olevels, and she's like what earning 25bucks an hour and shopping at zara, while here i am getting 5As for endyears and i shop at cotton on and eats hawker center food. HAHA.
so this teaches me something: GRADES DON'T MATTER.
and puh-lease, my sis is like another no-black-shoe,no-shiny-badge, no-nothing(actually everyone in my family member is like a failed leader! HAHA,this makes my 'choir sectional leader' look danm good) and yet she's like an awesome teacher to her kids can and all her students at the idk-what-sch she teachers at look up to her and all the parents think that she's awesome.
and another thing: YOU DON'T NEED TO WEAR BLACK SHOES TO SUCCEED IN LIFE.
HAHA,i(L)my sis. she totally cracks me up -my ultimate counseller.

'sang nila utama is the king of malaysia right?!'
and she said in the i-know-i'm-very-smart kind of voice like puh-lease, SANG NILA UTAMA IS THE ONE WHO FOUNDED THE LION ON SINGAPORE. HAHA. and my sis took history as an olevel subject and FAILED IT.
HAHAHAHAHAH.

so from today onwards, i'm just going to make sure i'm a happy kid. who cares about frickin' Os, at most if i cannot become a doctor when i grow up, i'm going to fly to america and join some screwed-up band as a guitarist. woohoo, or i can aspire to be like my sis. teach kids and earn 25bucks per hour <:))))

'because ignoring reality is the next big thing to changing it,'
HAHA,and since homework is part of reality, i've secretly stashed my whole bunch of bio and chem worksheets back into my bag and convinced my mom that i'm done with my homework :DDDD

oh,and with reference to the comic strip above, don't tell me about how the ostrich eventually got killed even though it stuck its head into the sand. HAHA,cause i'm not a frickin' ostrich. i'm a plant as well as an avatar. i have a tail and chlorophyll and i can run faster than people. so shhhhh.

i think i'm overly high now cause the whole family abandoned me at home, SLEEPING while they happily go out jalan jalan at IKEA eating breakfast and never even takeaway meatballs for meeee):

someone should buy me the subscription of the seventeen mag as a birthday present cause im broke and i want to read mags and books):

school rules, loopholes.
stupid spotchecks tomorrow!
cause we're ain't going down without a fight,
cedarians aren't that stupid to wear 1800s long lacy skirt fashions with footballers socks and ballerina-like buns and combed up hair. GOODLUCK PEOPLE<:)

EUGENIA! HELLO YOU CUCKOO(: LET'S GO OUT SOON, LIKE I KNOW I'VE BEEN SAYING THIS FOREVER AND I TOTALLY PROCRASTINATED ABOUT OUR OUTING CAUSE I HAD CHEER+DANCE+BUSY PACKED HOLS BUT SERIOUSLY! :DDDD THANKS BTW,

LUCY! HAHA, REMEMBER? LOUSY, LUCY? I SHALL CALL YOU LUCY FROM NOW ON. IDK! LETS GO ON A DANCE-LESS DAY(:

-A-

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polkadots- - Saturday, January 16, 2010 @ 4:41 PM

HAHA.what i do on saturdays.

1030: decided that i will finish my homework
1040: zipped open my guitar bag and started spazzing like taylor swift with her i-like-to-flip-my-blond-hair thing
1200: tired. msn-ed dayna and asked her how to do chinese. she kind of gave me the answers!
1210: youtube-ed.
1230: realized that i was supposed to go get my chinese passage to do chinese hw.
1245: couldn't find the hw.
1300: found it. opened babelfish.com so i could translate my thoughts in chinese<:) i swear the translator is the best invention in the world! did i mention, for the let's-introduce-myself piece of chinese homework, i dumped my whole blog profile thing into the translator and copied it out. guess what, i got a C. HAHA.
1310: lunch.
1400: mom gave me a speaker cause she said you'll get ear cancer(?!)when you listen to headphones for a long time. HAHA. proof that i studied chem-you can used cobalt-60 to kill cancer cells!!! not that i want to.
1410: started blasting ke$sha, taylor swift on the speaker. OHMY,you know how my mom sings 'you belong with me'. HAHA,she only knows one line. 'i wears t-shirt, she wears long skirt', she'll look up from her newspaper to sing that one line and then go back to reading. major loser. HAHA,and the longskirt part totally reminded me about foo&nair and that there's spotcheck tmr tmr): so me and bro ended up singing 'i wear tshirt, she wears tshirt, come on everybody just grab a tshirt' and we ended ROFLing.
1500 stalked taylor swift on myspace. I LOVE COUNTRY MUSIC. tswift, miranda lambert, keith urban, carrie underwood, kellie pickler. uhuh,ohyeah.
1530 realized i told myself that i would finish my chem+bio+phy+eng+chinese+math hw today.
1545 finally started on ss. oh, and my ss homework is one parag only, on those grrrr. northen ireland-ers.
1600 finished ss.
1610 realized its my grandad's birthday today.
1615 ate ice-cream with my bro.
1630 spazzed with him over pri sch assesments and totally white-lied him about seclife being AWESOME and that you have v.little homework, un-bitchy teachers, and that life's great. LIES.

what is the difference between temperature and heat.
me: temperature has 1,2,3,4....10 letters! (only ltr did i realize it was 11)while heat has 4.
bro: no!!! cause temperature is the degree of...
me: TEMPERATURE STARTS WITH T!!! HEAT STARTS WITH A H!!
bro: walau, i dont know how you top your class for science one.
HAHA,i didn't mention to him that 1H2H, like hates our sci teachers everyyear. DOWN WITH THE LENG DYNASTY. epic man.

ohmymummy, i'm looking at msn msg histories and i'm laughing my head off.
HAHA,i remember this whole bunch of me+pling+doughnut.aka.dayna+eugenia+eleanor+celine+jy, eugenia was like the only sane one.
the rest of us were like HAHA-ing every other sentences cause we were debating over whether there was d&t on monday(HAHA,i love the 'sry, i read the wrong week of the timetable' as an excuse for not bringing stuff)+whether should we do hw+hunting for mr.anil aka squirrels in fort canning(?!)+bring bear traps to trap anil the squirrel cause he will not fit into mouse traps(HAHA,jy's idea)

okay, it's 1700 now):
and i've only finished what, i bio wksht and 1 ss parag.
and i'm left with math(BZZZ.i dun understand non-linear equations at all),cheena,chem and phy.
):

HAHA,i'm still reading the ultra-blond 2H convo. we're speculating over miss ong 'attached' relationship status. HAHA,joshua sng is a two-timer. and what, miss ong used to work in the airport. omg, blond shit. and the 'lets-all-hop-outta-this-convo-tgt' which i think failed EPICLY.

AH,i need to go out.
i need a math study date):
i need a dance date):
i need an iceskating date):
i need a macron supplier(DAPHNE HO YI SOMETHING, that's you)
i need a let's-go-shop-for-presents partner(mich and vanessa, pls)
bottomline: let's get out of this place.

&i've uploaded the indigo outing pictures alrd!!! stop haunting me and leaving offline msges, grrr.

ohyes, i'm kind of not looking forward to sch cause someone's angry with me(!!!!), not that she'll read this anyway, i'm sry i'm lied): oh&i dun want to have ss lessons cause mdm tan is like a horror movie. she freaks the hell out of me. but at least, i have celine tsang the one who holds my fingers gaily on the way back to class and my bio lab partners whom we know we are very failures at paying attention to mr chen. either we fall asleep, reading random chaps like mitosis or play air guitar and totally ignore ahchen.

-A-

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imma in a terrible fix - Friday, January 15, 2010 @ 3:47 PM

when will it be my turn recording covers):

ohwell, i guess one awesome side-effect of lonely hearts and grief is that i learn damn fast AND well,
i spent the whole night not doing my homework instead playing 4hours on the guitar non-stop, and i learnt like should've said no, picture to burn, had it all, down and replay all in one night.
and they weren't those easy peasy chicken shit kind of songs, it was hard):
so now, i have blistered fingers.

sch was like crap, no-life crap. the only excitement i had today was what, whining at jesslyn and begging her to tell the real thing behind 'sentosa primary school' and making fun of natasha's pencil cases.
today was a trip science+double math+eng day, totally squeezed the remaining of my scarce brain cells.
and i have 34958498594 homework this weekend.
):

and for goodness sake, stop asking whether i'm a bloody instructor or not.
NO,I'M NOT.
and i don't know whether some people are really ignorant about it or they're rubbing salt into it.
and i cannot stand her smug face.

i'm rly considering ditching oac, like sprain my ankle rly badly go run 3km and get rly bad knee/ligaments problem and ta-da, stay at home to memorize the rest of my bio textbook.
cause in my life, i've zip-lined twice, rockwall-ed once, ab-sailed thrice and done highE with enough memories to last me for a life. i have slight heartburns so the 'campers, finish your food in five minutes' kind of thing kind of tortures me at the same time.
plus, my class is like deader than corpses.

i wished there was such a 'reading club' in cedar, then i'll go in there and become vice-president.
cause reading is one of things in life i can't screw up.

-A-

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it's so typically me- - Thursday, January 14, 2010 @ 7:52 PM

Psychological theories of crying emphasize on the relationship of crying to experience of percieved helplessness, ostensibly because the person feels powerless or unable to influence what is happening.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIMBERLY!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIMIN THE PIG!!!

The only leadership position I'd ever have in my life is like what, choir sectional leader?
Never worn black shoes, never had special badges, never been the apple in the teacher's eyes.
The only friend I'd ever had in my life is myself.
No besties, no clique, no one that I could ever tell my secrets to.
The only thing I can succeed in my life is to die, which I hope I can actually complete it.
No awesome musical talent, no genius deoxyribonucleic acid, no long-legs-make-me-an-athlete thing.
Welcome to my world.

No one in my class got caught for spotcheck, I'm like what the hell, even secones got caught.

What is on the cover of my chem and bio notebook:
ALGAE
I self-study because my teachers are like sleeping pills.

I think I got scolded alot of times during dance today.

-A-

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just walk away and don't look back - - Tuesday, January 12, 2010 @ 7:48 PM

someone needs to teach me how to stop crying cause salt water will make my guitar strings oxidise, my eyelashes droop and my hypersensetive skin to become dry.
or perhaps i should just operate on myself and slice off my tear ducts.

have you ever broken a rib before,
that's how much it hurts.
and i've gotten a fair share of cardiac problems myself to know how the heart aches.

i love doing my physics homework.
all i need to know is that the refractive index is the ratio between speed of light in air and speed of light in that optical medium, ratio between true and apparent depth, ratio between sin-i over sin-r.
and i don't need to think about anything else.

I(L)ALIAH(:
thankyou,
you're the first one who actually somewhat successfully taught me the manipulation of the stupid sin-i and sin-r crap. even mr goh couldn't, HAHA,you're an awesome tutor even though that 1.67x10^24 incident was dumb,

-A-

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you're the one who makes me laugh and cry, but i cry more often though- - Monday, January 11, 2010 @ 8:25 PM

HAHA,i print screened this like what, yesterday and i'm still looking at the same wikipedia page now):
can't believe i'm saying this but yes, science can be a bitch at time.
like damn it, i can't picture the xylem tissue is actually make of cells. like seriously, and my bio teacher's explanation doesn't help a SINGLE BIT, he only helps with my insomia i swear.
and i missed today's combined chem lecture and i have like only two percent of what relative molecular mass and the stupid avogardo's constant is.
):

1. i need an awesome senior who is awesome enough to let me ask her questions(i'm allergic to tutors, i actually do better without them.HAHA.that explains why i'm such a failure tutor myself.)
2. congrats libing(: she should totally write a book on HOW TO GET A1s, all the kiasu kids in singapore + their parents will like her book a #1 bestseller,heh. but seriously, 9A1s?! i can't even get 5):
3. how come almost every sec4 has like an A for cheena olevels, that doesn't really help on my pressure levels that laoshi created after cheena.
4. i should stop talking about studies. the side effects of being a trip science student):
5. my nerve cells are like working at the 3.0 x 10^8 (I SWEAR TALKING IN SCIENCE IS THE RESULT OF READING TOO MUCH BIO TEXTBOOKS AND MEMORIZING MY PHYSICS NOTES,i hate myself)
6. i want to transfer class badly): even though i'll miss chin and mr goh)))))): BUT STUPID KRYSTAL, HOW COME YOU CAN TRASNFER TO 3I?!!!! i don't mind being in any class that krystal is in cause we're both 24/7 entertainers for each other, i don't 3H OR 3A, at least it's better than having my form teacher picking on me every single free second she has of her life.
7. PEYLING WANTS TO MARRY JACKIE CHAN WHEN SHE GROWS UP. i told the class i wanted to marry taylor swift and i think everyone thinks that i'm a lesbian now):
8. i absolutely CANNOT tolerate messy notebooks>:( i get very frustrated and began tearing the pages out,heh. that's why my books always run out of pages so fast. i'm going to rewrite my notebook cause one page is like has WORDS FLOATING ABOVE THE BLUE LINE, and i'm irritated.
9. JARULE IS A NICE GIRL(:
10. ELEANOR'S SISTER, THAT NEW MISS PHUA DAO-ED ME THREE TIMES IN A ROW TODAY>:( she used to be very nice to me, can.
11. TOMORROW'S HEIGHT AND WEIGHT BUT I'M IN NO MOOD TO DO CARDIO CAUSE I'M HAVING SHOULDER ACHES): i pray that i've grown to 163cm alrd <:)

yeah, my mom's pms-ing these few days and she's behaving like a werewolve on a full moon night, pssst, i'm being very kind not to curse her.
grr, but ohwell, i NEED and MUST convince her to let me out on wednesday or else mich and vanessa is going to slaughter me
>:(

I'M THE AVATAR PRINCESS.
HAHA. YOU MUST BOW DOWN TO ME AND ESCORT ME TO THE ASTHETICSTUDIO AND YOU MUST SAY 'BYE BYE AVATAR PRINCESS' WHEN I WALK INTO THE ROOM.
HAHA.ohmy, i swear it's damn hilarious.
i totally forced wanting, vanessa and regina to do those commands for ME. awh,
i upgraded. no more green puny stuff. i'm now 10feet tall, and i'm BLUE. so i think i'll look like a freak in my sch uniform.
who wants to watch avatar with me again, i'm going to drag those stupid anti-avatar people along to cathay with ME(:

ARGH, I HATE BEING A TRIP SCI KID. now i'm like totally paranoid of teachers scolding me for not doing homework. i remembered i used to be sucha FEARLESS kid where i think i still haven't done/handed in the math homework he gave in last year term 1 and the subsequent homeworks that follow. HAHA, and i still owe laoshi stuff i think. heh, and now what, i finish homework in school can. GRRR, WHAT KIND OF KID ARE YOU NOW):

today's a boring post cause cedar makes you a boring kid.

i wonder why people in general are so fascinated with netballers.

i bought 4vampire academy books.
and i have ZERO with me now.
):
i'm like some vampire-academy-borrowing-station.

-A-

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let's roll up the windows and sing country songs - Sunday, January 10, 2010 @ 6:12 PM

K SAYS:

MO NO CAH CHNG TOUCH BUTT

SO CUTE MAN

EH WHERE’S ALGAE O.o

[NICOLE] SAYS:

idk lei

busy with her vivian and mingzhen and god knows who

K SAYS:

NATASHA.

MY Natasha.

[NICOLE] SAYS:

MISS YANG

HAHAHA

eh stop it la krystal

you’re mine and i’m yours

no others!

ALGAE SAYS:

WHAT?

VIVIAN?

MINGZHEN?

AND WHAT’S WITH THE IM YOURS?!

[NICOLE] SAYS:

god knows who!

HAHAHA

where’s everybody?

MOMMYYYY

IT’S OVERRRRRRRRR!

K SAYS:

hahhahha WHAT?!?!

ALGAE SAYS:

K SAYS:

I SHALL BLOG ABOUT THAT WHOLE PART

SO FUNNY WE ALL TALKING BOUT DIFF STUFF

[NICOLE] SAYS:

HUH WHAT

HAHHAHAHA

K SAYS:

hahaha ok GOOD. I REST MY CASE.

[NICOLE] SAYS:

omg we damn lame sia

AGAEEEE

i need oxygen

photosynthesise quick!

K SAYS:

HAHHAHA GO BREATH INSIDE ALGAES BRAIN

ITS EMPTY ONLY GOT AIR

[NICOLE] SAYS:

HAHAHAHA

no la

can’t breathe there

its wood

HAHA.i think i just realized that they were calling me a woodblock and i'm silently shaking with laugher in front of my computer now.
yes, the three of us are like retards spamming pictures on facebook and stupid conversation with all three of us as blur as cuckoos, i think i was the blur-est though.

I MISS 2H
life sucks, i'm currently being grounded under my mom on the context that 'ive threwn away old textbooks that can be reused' so i can't go buy presents for someone someone and attend 2H's combined birthday party.
and i wanted to upload some of our nonsensical pictures like not-so-secretively-eating-in-class and a whole bunch of people crunched up over an ipodtouch playing tap tap.
but apparently both blogger and facebook are being major bitches and its taking longer than forever to get them up on the net.
sighs, i really really miss 2H. how many times have i said this,
like krystal said- no one can ever beat 2H in changing in and out of uniform in record time, making the most noise, being the most nonsense and stuff that don't really please our teachers etc.
it realy sucks to be in a no-life triple science class.

boohoo,i'm damn bored. i just finished my emath homework even though i couldn't solve half the equations.
played guitar half the day, fingers bled. couldn't play anymore.
i was THAT bored that i began stirring my mom's porridge and began screaming in an animated voice,
'TSUNAMI! THE TSUNAMI IS GOING TO SWEEP EVERYONE AWAY!'
gosh, even my brother was asking me waht my 'porridge tsunami' was going to sweep away apart from the metal rims of the pot.
i kind of ignored that comment and began lifting a ladle of porridge and threw it back into the pot, screaming
'ITS SNOWING!' okay, i think i know i'm retarded.
got scolded by mom for playing with food.
then i began dialling my mom's phone using the house phone continuously,
'WHAT IN THE WORLD DO YOU THINK YOU'RE TRYING TO DO?' my mom was srly very pissed.
'i like the ringtone.' i think i forgot to mentino i set my mom's phone to some taylor swift song.
yeah, so i think i can totally write a book on: WHAT TO DO WHEN YOU'RE EXTREMELY BORED.

the weekend's ending,
damn it, i have to drag my fat ass outta bed tomorrow morning like even before i see the sun over the HDB flats and take the MRT, fall alseep on the MRT before i wake up to the 'NEXT STATION, SENGKANG.' and take the train back to potong pasir.

i officially declare that i'm going to self-study bio and chem. so stop asking me to tutor you, i myself need help.

now, i'm dropping my picks into the hole of the guitar then turning the guitar over shaking the whole instrument like hell just to get the pick out of it.
translation: I'M BORED.
and i've finished reading every single book in my house(not really, i didn't touch the baby or the chinese books)and i'm one-third through my bio textbook so shut up.

bitch.

i want to go to the library tomorrow, i think my books are due and i have to pay fines.
):

-A-

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handsome and awesome.HAHA - Saturday, January 9, 2010 @ 7:41 PM

falling in love will change my life,
for the worse i swear.

i hate the new you, the cold, unsmiling you.
i miss the late-nights, sweet comments, forgiving, awesome, open you.

okay, so today's a somewhat i-dreaded-it-at-first-but-i'm-relishing-the-memories kind of a day,
i think i totally screwed my instructor interview with three apparent, mean-looking pair of eyes staring at me, trying to see through my inner soul or something like that.
well, they shot questions like bullets on a firing range and i answered like crap, so there goes it.
i blasted the whole thing.

had fun the later day though escorting leader vivian around singapore,HAHA.
I LOVE YOU NICOLE,
it's okay if you don't love me back,
i'll follow you from earth to pandora next time kays,
P.S i want to be an avatar when i grow up(and i don't get it why everyone looks at me with a does-she-belong-to-the-institute-of-mental-health face when i say that)
jurong east popular, i still can laugh at myself now.

'i'm a streetsmart barnacle,'
if getting-around-singapore was a subject, i'll get A1 i swear.
how come nobody knows where the hell is dover,

oh, and yes finally, i've finally given up on adpating to my new environments, making new friends and etc. (i made new friends today! carin and cara. both of them are like full-time entertainers)
i hate my class, my form teacher, all my other subject teachers apart from my math, physics and chinese teacher(even though she humilates us in front of the whole class. DOUGHNUT,heh)
and if i had a choice now, i'll gladly transfer to 3N(pure lit so what, it doesn't kill me.i love books anyway,)and take a science as an extra subject.
studying bio with my current teacher is the same as reading the textbook, or even worse. at least i don't fall alseep.
like seriously, i hate the you're-a-triple-science-class-and-henceforth-you-must-be-damned-well-smart-and-six-pointers and all that shit.
what the difference between trip sci-ers and double sci-ers, they're just stupid humans who most of them regretted joining this secondary school.
and it doesn't help with the transiton when my class is a close-minded, absolutely hates new and creative stuff.
and my class is literally so damn quiet that i've taken to either sleeping or doing math homework during school, LIFE SUCKS.
and the only thing i look forward to is meals with krystal, the only thing that keeps me going. ohyeah, and dancers too(even though natasha claims that i'm being bullied half the time)

NHE-TAA-SHER,
this is for the senior who owes me a letter like for a very very long time already,heh.
and don't worry, you'll be on the cover of seventeen and not IT for dummies(don't listen to jolene,heh)

i have emath homework, tons of files and exercise books and presents to buy.
i wished money was elastic,

we're going to learn mitosis for olevels,yipee,
heh,anaphase, prophase, it's all mentioned in twilight in the bio class scene y'know.
HAHA,i'm damn excited to be learning the same things as bella and edward.

ITS A CRIME NOT TO WATCH AVATAR. and that means, YOU, vanessa.
i'm still in love with that blue-alien-girl and the ultra-chio flying birds.

'people who have less than 5hours of sleep a day tend to have more suicidal thoughts'
perfect explanation for my frequent occurances of what's-the-possibility-of-me-dying-if-i-jump-down-the-building,
i have 4hours of sleep a day, sleep at 1am, wake up at 5.30 the next.
secondary school education, i swear.

i wished you were a stupid, short person who sucks big time.
why are you so awesome.

-A-

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avatar- - Friday, January 8, 2010 @ 10:13 PM

the worst accident i'd ever had in my life was ramming into a bike while on a bike, flying off that rusty piece of metal and scraping myself against the road. spiky tar road. i got a two-inch scar from the side of my eye all the way down to my lips along with swollen lips, ulcers, bruises and cuts. i thought i looked like a purple tomato for that one month. but my scar -it's really ugly-took one and a half year to completely heal and disappear. but it didn't take me more than two weeks to regain my confidence to start cycling all over again, recklessly.

i have fallen/rolled/snowballed/skimmed/tumbled off half of the esclator and ended up with cuts and bruises. but it didn't take me more than half an hour to begin sitting on the esclator and treating it like those inflated balloon castles,

for me, i can take as many physical accidents as anyone would want me to take. i can get run down by a car, slip into coma, transfer into intensive car unit, and at the end of one year, come back to school and maybe be on my way for my next accident and i'll never become scared.

but if you just ram me hard enough with one emotional accident, good luck, it's a scar for life.

people always joke about me being crazy and calling the institute of mental health for fun and stuff right,

but what i don't think is funny about that is i've actually been in there before,

as a patient.

for real.

the doc says, i'm the kind of person who keeps everything to myself and even if someone stays with me 23hours and 59minutes, that person wouldn't even get an inside peek to more than ten percent of what i'm thinking about. cause in that one minute, is where the other 90percent all comes out. and if someone stays with me twenty-four-seven, i'll just bottle everything up.

and till now, i haven't exploded.

haven't.

so you think that you know me,

you think that just because you've seen me laugh and breakdown and pissed before, it means that you know me,

you don't.

not a single bit.

okay,enough of those sombre shit.

i had a dream last night, that i was late for my instructor interview and i totally screwed it up, like a major failure,

i woke up in the middle of the night, panting and crying.

and that's the second nightmare i've ever had in my life.

and so, i've also learnt that i've set alarm for 7am on 3alarm clocks and so, i will never be late.

heh.

my favourite subjects are chem, bio and ss/geog.

and it happens that now, the only subjects/subject teachers that can keep awake are math and physics.

the subjects that i hate the most- happen to be the most entertaining,

i(L)miss chin, i(L)mr goh - heh,he's damn cute and awesome at refractive index etc.

i fell asleep during biology, yawned as though there's no tomorrow during chem and kind of got freaked out during ss/geog.

don't even mention the languages,

so basically, it sums up that school sucks.

especially when the disipline mistress expects you to wear victorian-length skirts with football socks.

talk about looking prim and proper.

'our school is known for our disipline,'

heh,then how come i have a bunch of sec1 friends who refused to join cedar because they've heard that the school sucks big time,

dance auds were today,

some awesome sec1 girl totally warmed up my heart like i caught her next to the water cooler practing and as well as failing miserably and no one else, dancer or classmate bothered to help her.

so me, being the usual kind/compassionate/loving senior went over to help.

yeah,so she needed alot of help to grasp everything and she was very afraid of me leaving her side and doing the dance on her own,

but as i taught some more she gained her own confidence and i thought my heart swelled to a size of a frickin' mammoth,

and even though i know she ain't the standard to join dance, but she's the awesomest dancer ever.

she never fails to stop trying, for one thing i know.

i(L)physics notebook,

it's really pretty even though i got scolded by miss chin for ant-like handwriting,

but it's so awesome with all the purple ray diagrams and neat annotations,

heh,

i watched avatar and it's damn awesome,

i cried more than one third of the movie, my shirt was kind of damp by the time i left the cinema and i bit my nails alot during the fighting.

i think the ney-something,that girl alien is frickin' chio,

and the birds were very pretty-

and i love the way james cameron made sure all small details were there, like how the avatars needed tails to gain awesome balance like that, how the triceratops-looking stuff were brought back because they were resistent to gunpowder.

i hate the person who invented gunpowder.

and i'm going to buy the dvd, it contains the deleted sex scene-HAHA,i don't buy it because of that, okay, but the making out was really sweet and i cried like a waterfall for that scene.

who knew avatars could french kiss,

wow.

'i'm a barnacle,'

heh,henny and celine came back today,woohoo.

wish me goodluck for tomorrow, i'm going to need all the luck i can get and aishu, don't destroy my skirt.i'll destroy you.

-A-

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everyday's a bad day- - Tuesday, January 5, 2010 @ 9:25 PM

thankyou<:)
thankyou kimberly/natasha/zhihui/lee/lingyi/nicole for all the sweet awesome smses<:)
thankyou natasha/zhihui for the 'you must be thick-skinned to fight for what you want' talk <:)
thankyou lee for you 'awesome' advice with the 'shit happens' <:)
thankyou kimberly for 5smses long sms-it's the longest i've recieved-and i'm going to learn to be as sweet as you<:)
thankyou lingyi for the encouragement, it did make a difference <:)
thankyou nicole for your nonsense theory which only succeeded in thinking what on earth does lee does to you juniors,heh <:)

heh,the interview's on saturday and i think i'm going to be the first one>:(
it's already driving me crazy,
cannot screw this one up, it's as important as finals>:(

okay,so school was slightly better today even though i had to face the wrath of my form teacher who doesn't even believe that i, algae, can become a sports rep and she gives the position to a person who doesn't look like the type who can get gold for nafa,
not that i'm being mean but seriously,
how will she lead jogging if she cannot even pass her 2.4,
but she deserves a shot at it since she's forced into the role-
grrr, and i'm sitting next to a PRC scholar and it's like one chicken and duck - my chinese is so poor, her english is so poor, i just talk to gayle/peixuan/celine/huiying who are all around me.

i hate this,

is avatar really that good,
cause cathay's 3D's like booked this whole week, including weekends and i can only do advance bookings for next tuesday's show onwards,
gahh.

i miss 2H,
i miss krystal/nicole/flower/nadiah/youpay/aishu/eleanor/jarule/aliza/AND THOSE TWO STUPID IP GIRLS WHO ARE ONLY STARTING SCHOOL NEXT WEEK>:(

-A-

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hi - - Monday, January 4, 2010 @ 10:56 PM

this pretty much sums up the whole of the first-day-0f-school that everyone was so jittery and excited about on the 3jan,

i officially miss staying up late till three, waking up at two in the afternoon and nobody's going to scold you, i can spend the whole day watching the jewel in the place or just mimicking taylor swift's guitarist and i don't need to give a damn about what's happening in the rest of the world.
but apparently, life doesn't go the way you want it to,

it's 11.18PM now, i'm doing my chinese homework on the old computer table, my eyes teary-red, fatigue's catching up on me but i must force those bloody eyelids to open and my brain to work on the composition as well as vanessa's instructor nomination paragraph which is very important to her,
well, no one gets how important is it to me,
that had been the magic word ever since i was a sec1 going on sec2,
it's still magic thinking about the possibility of it actually happening it to me,
but life sucks, you never want you want-

i've got nothing to show, don't i? so what's there to watch.

at least dick has a jane, i have nothing.
and even if i jump, who in the world will attend my funeral,

disappointment comes along with expectations,
i shouldn't have never expected anything at all,
after all, i know best i don't do things right,
i never do.

someone please remind me to put on the nothing's-going-on-if-anyone-asks-me-i'll-just-say-life's-awesome mask tomorrow,

-A-

P.S algae is a green plant that can withstand both withering high and blistering cold temperatures but it doesn't mean, it stand withstand you. to think that i've thought so highly of you and yet, you just happen to be another usual human.

P.P.S my reasons for being an instructor are as pure as mineral water. my reasons for being an instructor does not include words like 'instructors' or 'leaders' in it. my reaaons for being an instructor, even i myself don't know.

P.P.P.S it's late, i think i'm just going to indulge in something to drink and fall alseep without tossing and turning in the bed. life sucks, take drugs. i'm somewhere there already,

the girl who seemed flawless broke
the girl who seemed so strong crumbled
the girl who always laughed it off cried
the girl who never stopped trying-
finally gave up

P.P.P.S and i'm nowhere near perfect, so why am i not allowed to break done, cry and not want to get on with life. and i think i know i got a reason why, i'm called algae for a reason. i survive for thousands of years on rocks with meagre sunlight and water, and now i'm just caught in this stupid political and societal system, i can get out of it.

of course i can.
can i?

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welcome to hollywood- - Friday, January 1, 2010 @ 10:47 AM

would you risk you not being able to do the things you love just to make sure that your loved ones can do theirs?

my brother with his stupid/dumb-ass/act-cool marathon and/or triathlon obession has finally ended like his right thumb permanently immbolised(HAHA,i make it sound as though it's like dommsday, 2012, 2more years!)and yeah, he has to go under the knife and all that doc's bullshit crap.
and i also just realized you can't write without your thumb, don't believe me? go hold a bloody pen WITHOUT your thumb, i tried that when my bro told me and yeah, you can't unless you grab the pen like a knife in the waiting to stab someone position when your hand's next to your ear,
and the thing is: he's a (history)teacher and he can't fucking write and the pure hist students should know better how much miss lizah writes, and my poor brother.

me&my sister&my niece are this awesome bunch of girls in the family who adore ballet like seriously(i don't exactly love dance with all my life, but i'm fascinated by pointe shoes and tutus etc.)
and my six-year-old niece is like this major ball of energy everytime you ask her to dance for you and her teacher says she has alot of potential(don't know whether she's sucking up to my sis or is it real,)
but the point is: my scrawny-lovable-ball-of-fluff can't dance cause she has two left feet and flat foot so her balance sucks to the ultimate and my sis puts her on pyhsio so she can walk properly,
it's frickin' poor thing, it's you're like so fcuking young and you're deprieved of even being to WALK and you can't DANCE and you absolutely hate it and you feel like screaming at the adults,
'i thought you can said childhood was the best, and i'm stuck like that,'
but even worse, she doesn't even know why she can't dance and why she's always lagging behind even though she puts in three times more effort than the rest of the class-

BUT I WILL,
i will give up what i want to do in my life just to make sure my brother and niece can live their lives right,
one screwed up life is better than deprieving my selfless, doting brother of his job and somewhat hooby and my awesome niece of her dream of being a ballerina,
and so what i can no longer play the guitar or dance or run(yes, i(L)running)ever again,
it's worth it.
and i tell you, love is not fcuking selfish.
it's selfless.

and i will donate my right thumb/feet to my bro/niece because i(L)them but donation of my limbs doesn't rly work cause yeah,
>:(

gahhh, it's so loser and stupid and dumbfcuk blogging on newyear's-pause,
HAPPY NEW YEAR GUYS, YOU'RE ONE YEAR OLDER AND HAPPY TRANSITING FROM PRIMARY SCHOOL TO SECONDARY SCHOOL(YOU'RE GOING TO NEED ALL THE LUCK YOU CAN GET), FROM SECONE TO SECTWO(HOMEWORK LOAD IS INCREASED LIKE THREE THOUSAND PERCENT?)SECTWO TO SECTHREE(I NEED HELP MYSELF)AND THE SEC-FOUR-TO-BES(GO SMASH THAT STUPID EXAM IN ITS FACE)
okay, this is much cheaper than mass-sms-ing the whole world since i sms-ed indigo last night and didn't get a single reply>:(-anyway, back to topic
it's 11.19AM and the whole family's at IKEA reinventing the hse while i'm stuck at home doing ss/chinese which i'm apparently not doing since i'm typing on the comp.
i bet half of the world is like celebrating like there's no tomorrow while the other half is like ME, no life-stuck at home doing things you don't want to do
bzzzz,

but nevermind i think i got the fill of fun last night alrd, mom decided to bring me out in the end despite being grounded to marina bay for the countdown but like, what the hell, three quaters of singapore which amounts to amout(4.8mil divided by 4 times 3)do the math yourself, erh, 3.6million people were like squeezing at city hall mrt/suntec/marina square/every single inch of space possible to inhabit those party goers dressed in little black dresses and their mascara running like the waterfalls.
so i think i kind of gave up waiting for fireworks after shopping, the crowd was like livid,
but bought new stuff and currently i'm alrd looking out chinese new year clothes <:)
new clothes make algae happy,
new shoes also make algae happy,
so you see, it's very easy to make me happy just drop me at a mall(prefably orchad)and stuff twenty bucks in my wallet i'll be as happy as the alvin and the chipmunks who don't seem to have a single bit worry in their minds.

ohandyeah, there's like two more days(not counting today)to school reopen, thanks for the downer, lingyi>:(
and i don't want to go back to school, >:( even though i enjoy back-to-school shopping alot,
speaking of which i haven't bought pencil case and track shoes and pe shirt yet >:(
nevermind, mum's going to rent a car/or an 'automobile' so she says so we're going around singapore during the weekend(and i'm going to LIE that i've finished my homework),
<:)
i want to buy a new sewing machine so i can alter my skirt<:)
but how do you even alter a skirt?! hmm,that's why youtube and google are invented for a reason:Di(L)the internet,

heh,AISHU: you lousy person, i know you want to be reunited with the person who just chopped her hair as much as i don't want it. so much for mutual understanding you idiot, what happened to your blog. locked it and never invite me, ARGH?!

ohmymummy, this post is like some sort of literature essay about love(HAHA)and then some english summary about how i spent my newyearseve and how i'm spending my DISASTEROUS newyears>:(

oh,it's 2010.
2moreyears of living guys, till 2012 so live it like there's no tomorrow<:)

-A-

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Goodmorning This is the Algae Residences How may I help you,	Autobiography My best friend is the guitar. &I never need boyfriends. I fall in love easily. With random things like country music, vampires,romance novels&colorful pens. To me, Taylor Swift&The Saturdays are awesome. I love little black dresses&scarves. In my spare time, I like to design cards&conduct random science experiments like dipping eggs into acid. Yeah&unlike normal humans, I like science, converging lenses&relative atomic masses included. Secretly, I want to be a doctor& a guitarist on the spy when I grow up. I love nonsense people who make me laugh. &yes, I love inviting people to my house&being invited to other's houses. I hate raindrops, airplanes, Jacob Black&jerks. No, I'd never though that I was smart/gorgeous/talented. I'm just a green colored pond scum. A bitchy one to be precise. P.S My bitchiness is inherited, so beware of my mom. P.S And currently, I'm desperate for a new phone&a pair of flipflops. Indigo'09 1Hcube'08 2HighOnHiccups'09 Modern dancer bolditalicunderline~~strikeout~~	- Sunday, January 31, 2010 @ 4:52 PM I love you... in a really really big 'pretend-to-like-your-taste-of-music, let-you-eat-the-last-piece-of-cheesecake, hold-a-radio-over-my-head-outside-your-window unfortunate way that makes me hate you' love you. So pick me, choose me, love me. back to the top? lovesick. - Saturday, January 30, 2010 @ 11:37 AM when sch sucks like this, you need romance comedies to cheer you up. so who's on? things i'd kill for now: some mystical magical machine that helps you draw graphs and label the equations, draw smooth curves and accurate tangents): , chocolate milk and fro-yo, dance lessons(i rly rly hope i can get into broadway but life has taught me never to dream or to get expectations), and someone who can translate the whole molecular genetics chapter in my brain. D: hung out with sec1s ystd, i like this batch of secones though(: okay, anyway, their math homework which mr chris chan endowned with stickers and 'fantastic' and 'excellent' kind of made me sad when i showed them my quadretic functions worksheet and i saw a sea of blank looks. HAHA, -A- back to the top? - Thursday, January 28, 2010 @ 8:09 PM the school should realize that level of stress(x-axis)and grades of student(y-axis)work like that. yeahsure, the sch council will go yomdadada on why they give us pressure cause stress works, makes us study, grades go up and all that shit. but dude, there's a maximum point, a turning point where stress no longer gives you positive results. like what, my classmates are falling ill one at a time and hello, sch council- cca+homework+studying=not enough sleep+low immunity+more vunerable to sickness=miss sch+got to catch up=vicious cycle repeats itself. P.S i realized how canadians actually survive. they have like what, 12.1years is their average schooling per person. P.P.S i want to live in bukina faso(HAHA,like where the hell is that place), their average schooling years is like a frickin' 0.1?! and plus, their life expectancy is 48.2. even better, you die earlier=less trouble P.P.P.S all this info are coming from the geog ppt. P.P.P.P.S don't you think the graph i posted is like damn pretty, i'll nvr be able to draw something like that. which explains everyone's laughter at my math homework): studied with zhihui+michelle+the other michelle(chia)+vanessa+xinting today, HAHAHAH, it was an absolute failure. 'HURRY UP DO. YOU TAKE WHAT, 20MINUTES TO DO ONE PHYSICS QUESTION?! I ALREADY FINISHED MY CHEM WORKSHEET.' that was what i was screaming at vanessa half the time. i swear, teaching her is like burning more calories than the race across america and increases the chances of getting cardiac arrest by like 3000percent. okay, bottom line = fun. and cause the sch thinks that pushing student to the verge of the grand canyon is such a fun thing to do by giving a few moles worth of homework and tests that adds on to the pressure, i have like no time to blog, no time to play the guitar, to time to catch with my friends, no time eat, no time to practice dance, no time to listen to taylor swift. no fcuking time to get a life. 'HAHA,YOU HAVE A MOLE OF HAIR AND I HAVE A MOLE OF MONEY.' okay, sorry. i swear stress is like driving me up the wall and i'm like being ultra high on the way back home with vanessa as i was forcing ppl to sing you belong with me and discussing about sugar rush and werewolf rabbits on the bus. HAHAHAHAH. the chinese comprehension said(or at least that's what i thought it was cause i kind of didn't know how to read the words): giving up your dreams is one of the bravest things in the world. but giving it up without any regrets is even harder. but if you're going to chase your dreams at the expense of yourself and put the hearts of the people around you on the line, then it's not worth it at all. woah, for the first time i actually thought chinese made sense. well, it kind of made more sense when i wrote it out in english. nvm, point is: i've given up my dream. and hell, i'm not regretting it. thank god. AGAIN, screw school. i refuse to do my english comprehension and redraw my graphs. the sch can't force me to do whatever they want cause i'm not a bloody puppet nor are they my puppeters. perfect uniform+perfect grades+perfect leadership positions+perfect morals = sad life. happy kid = happy life. and since life is so short, why torture ourselves. yknow what, i think i'll take zhihui+michelle's advice, we should play first then study. at most olevels are like next friggin year, we can always use the three days before the paper to study. goodmorning school, this is what you have pushed me till. <:) -A- back to the top? - Wednesday, January 27, 2010 @ 9:07 PM HAPPY BIRTHDAY NATASHA! to my adopted sister/cheer vice-captain/dance senior/instructor, you can now watch a NC16 movie without the guilt of sneaking in<:) heh,&thanks to this picture i can finally picture you eating food. &you should take a picture of yourself using the computer or else i'll just picture you infront of the screen with your specs and two fingers typing slowly on the keyboard.HAHA. natasha owes me a birthday hug>:( and we didn't take a picture together>:( okay, there's supposed to be a photo spam of natasha's unglam moments but argh, no time): heh, i'll leave the long birthday letter to her real, paper, solid birthday card which like what, it'll take me alot of time to do and time is such a precious resource in upper sec): -A- back to the top? - Tuesday, January 26, 2010 @ 7:07 PM 'BUT I'M A UNICORN!!!!!' HAHAHAHA celestine and natasha labelled me as unicorn for some unidentified reason ): XINYUN HAS ALBINISM!!!!!! HAHAHAHA,like what, after today's bio lesson which i didn't pay attention to and reading the less-than-half-a-page of the textbook, i diagonsed xinyun with albinism:DDDD i swear i'm made to be a doctor!!!! HAHAHAHAH. anyway, #1. xinyun's cheeks and underside of her arms has like a MRT-line worth of blood vessels which is caused by lack fo pigment in the skin and thus blood vessels can be seen more easily. #2. xinyun's eyes aren't BLACK. they're amber! like the stupid edward cullen in twilight that kind of i-just-murdered-a-bear-for-blood that kind of color. #3. xinyun has brown hair!!! lack of pigment again. #4. xinyun gets sunburnt really easily!!! HEH,like seriously. does she rly have albinism? HAHAHA,if she does have this mild form of albinism, then i'm like damn awesome :DDDDDDDD EVIL vampires fall in (L) with me then VOMIT BLOOD and die. HAHAHA. xinyun+natasha+celestine+me(the vampire academy fans)were like discussing how the ultra HOT vampire, dimintri would fall in love with me. HAHAHA,and vomit blood and die! &i'm a unicorn! :DDDD 'SHI HUI, DO YOU HAVE ALOT OF SEC3 FANS?' omg, can you imagine laoshi actually asked natasha that. thanks to us. HILARIOUS. 'the curry molecules will travel from the curry to the bread through diffusion....' 'when i swallow the rice, the salivary amalyse will break down the starch into maltose and as it travels down the....' then my mom asked me to shut the hell up and eat. HAHAHAHAHA.like seriously, school has gone straight into my head that i'm studying bio over dinner. ahhhh, i missed the potong pasir mrt today and went all the way to kovan>:( WHY, cause i was thinking about natasha's present!!!! HAHAHA,natasha, if you're reading this, don't scold me for not giving you your present on time:( even xinyun knows how stressed i am about this. >:( my mom's a cedar volleyballer. HAHAHAHHAHAHAHA,like so what the hell right. i have 10293473929 things to do): of which 99.8% deals with studies(screw cedar) -A- back to the top? ): - Sunday, January 24, 2010 @ 6:57 PM WALAU.MY BROTHER IS LIKE DAMN MEAN. HE TOTALLY DANGLED THIS CHIP AND DALE THINGY THAT HIS TUTOR GOT FOR HIM IN FRONT OF ME. LIKE WHAT THE HELL, HE KNOWS I LIKE CHIP AND DALE AND HE REFUSES TO GIVE ME. AND HE HAD TO SHOW IT TO ME))))))))))): fyi, for the childhood deprieved kids out there, chip and dale is some chipmunk cartoon. which is ADORABLE. 'is christopher columbus chinese?' HAHAHAHAHAHA this is coming from my younger brother who knows more european cities than the sec4s who are taking Os this year, can name south african countries that even i cannot pronounce, recites friggin chinese idioms that i can't place(well, you can't blame me for it, i'm in CMI-class for chinese.HAHA)and he thinks that the founder of america is a friggin CHINESE. christopher columbus is spanish right? well, at least i don't think he's a chinese/indian/malay/singaporean/ASIAN. HAHAHAH. my brother just wasted one of my purple post-its and pasted above my lips cause i called him gay and he read the above paragragh.YOU SUCKA. i want that chip and dale thingy))))): ohwell, i think i'm spoilt. HAHA,a first coming from me, huh. it's like comparing myself to part-time housewife xinting, i don't even make my bed or wash the dishes. and my mom wanted to buy me an iphone just now, like WOAH, but i rejected it cause i'm scared like rly duper scared that i'll lose it within 1week and my mom will totally KARRRUMBA like some volcano on me >:( speaking of which, i haven't told her that i lost my specs yet. HEH,i'm awesome at lying. AHBLABLABLA,spent the whole day out: breakfast at IKEA, lunch at serangoon gardens, afternoon shopping for cny clothes(failure) and hanging out at my favourite stationery store. woohoo, my arms are aching from being a nice kid and helping my mom carry her bags cause she totally sponsored my 10++ spree worth of post-its and color paper at popular. dang, and i haven't finished my math+chinese+ss, and ohshit, tomorrow's a monday. D: HEY YOU. i don't care what you're facing now, my dear, but you're not the kind of girl who will stoop down to whatever problems you're facing. plus you're so tall, surely you can crush everything else. okay i know i'm a sucker at counselling people. but i rly rly don't want to see the emo side of you. please. I NEED STUDY DATES LA, LIKE SERIOUSLY. FAILING AMATH POP QUIZ IS A BIG DEAL DUDE WHEN XINTING CAN GET ALL CORRECT): or maybe i should just admit that i'm a dumbass. -A- back to the top? goodmorning - Friday, January 22, 2010 @ 7:30 PM that's the graph for x-axis(time) and y-axis(my math grades). ironic huh, that i used math to symbolise how much i suck at it. 0.5 out of 4, or technically zero cause teachers don't believe in half marks. like hell, i got a frickin' zero for my amath pop quiz and i didn't hand it in to miss chin cause i'm scared she'll lash at me like a dog whip. today was ohmygod-we-totally-pissed-miss-chin-off-and-we-need-to-think-of-a-plan-to-fix-it-like-prefably-NOW. the class totally made miss chin snap, roll her eyes and walk off and we were feeling damned guilty about it. spent the last few minutes of reading to discuss on making it up for chin. decided on 'GOOD MORNINGSSSSSS MISS CHIN' in the super enthu voice which kind of failed cause we were laughing through it. ohwell, i thought miss chin was happy though. miss chin freaks me out in a good way-thinking of her makes me think that at least some teachers in cedar has a working wardrobes and the thought of aftermath from her motivates to continue graph-ing in the middle of the night. unlike mdm tan, she's like a bad horror movie. blood and gore included. 'you girls are waterbottlesssss' that's how miss chin chooses to describe us. 'you got to stop lending books to natasha so she can study,' HAHA,aliah. my vampire academy is with denise my frostbite with xinyun my shadow kiss with xinyun my blood promise with natasha woah, i can set up the second cedar library already. 'last night, i dreamt of golgi bodies, rough endoplasmic reticulum and vesicles! and that i was one of the stupid proteins being transported out of the cell.' this is the result of having incompetent biology teachers and you have to self-study the whole bloody damned molecular genetics and like what the hell, you study so much you end up dreaming about cells in the middle of night. ughhh, i swear i'll be damned grateful to the next senior who offers me help. aliah, hint hint. 'baby, are you down up down up down... up... down...' HAHA,cheap trills. me&rach&yingyi were like singing like malfunctioning radios on the long, scorching, torturous walk back to the train station. this is what cedarians are reduced to. okay, i need to revisit my inner blonde with a trip out to orchad)))))): i miss somerset 313, ARGH, the forever21((((((: let's hope i can do my cny shopping there. okay, i need to start setting up study dates for next week alrd. -A- back to the top? screw school. - Thursday, January 21, 2010 @ 6:42 PM my mom's worried. lately, ive been really hyperactive. in my sleep. have you watched new moon? did you see the part where Bella cringes and withers and screams in her sleep. my mom says i'm like that. i'm freaky, huh. ugh. i'm not supposed to be blogging. i have graphs to draw, chinese compositions to write, ss questions to answer and biology to revise. gosh, did I ever mention: I self-study because my teachers are like sleeping pills. anyone who doesn't understand THE MOLE can come ask me:DDD cause i've got an awesome sec4 tutor who's wayyy better than my chem teacher. heh, in the meantime, i'm figuring the stupid bloody mRNAs and tRNAs out. i(L)chinese lessons, cause me and simin pretends to be ahpeks in the void deck reading newspaper and trying to find the winning 4D number in the newspaper, gave up and asked laoshi. 'LAOSHI, where's the winning 4D number in the newspaper ah'. HAHA, and this was like what, when she was explaining some crap which i obviously wasn't listening. 'TODAY WEDNESDAY LA, NO 4D. AND WHAT ARE YOU AND SIMIN DOING?' total embarrasment and failure at being ahpeks. did you read the newspaper today, people who put their responsibilites before pleasure are more likely to feel regret in their lives. UH-HUH,is this counted as a reason to not do my math homework cause 'i will be more likely to suffer from emotional breakdown caused by regret?' heh. &fyi, studying chem and bio is a PASSION, not a chore. for me at least. pssst. who's an awesome enough person to let me copy your bio notes? bzzzzz. i don't steal/hook up with people's girlfriends)))))): gosh, the only thing i steal is what, peixuan's graph notes to copy?! ahhhh, i hate school): surviving on 4hours of sleep, avogardo's number worth of homework, to-study pile as high as everest and dance, dance, dance and more and dance stupid fcuking relationship problems weigh me down. yes, nicole, i owe you your specifically-requested birthday present which you know the price alrd. and i owe alot of other people their bday presents)))))): i swear, popular should award me with like what highest-spender ever kind of an award. this week, i've been to popular thrice(and i'm gng again tmr)and i've spent like what 29384984bucks popular sucks my money): yknow what, i'm not gng to ditch OAC, cause i'm not gng to let that bitch* think that i'm gng down without a fight. hey, i'm an organism born with chlorophyll and has survived more than billions of years and you think it'll just take YOU to bring me down. dream on, bitch. want to make my life horrible? go ahead. cause this time, i'm not holding back anything. 'our school motto is to nurture leaders of character' screw the school. i'm gng to ask all my younger friends, 'do you want to wear a 1300s length of skirt, you know the kind when you can't see your ankles, football socks, ballerina's hair?' 'do you want to be so stressed that you breakdown every week, so much homework you get eye bags, so much commitments and a whole pile of shit when you can't free yourself to think about anything else, be under the teaching of students who are so fcuking biased and condemmned you like hilter and the jews?' 'do you want to feel as though you're so frickin' insignificant because the school council thinks that only smart people or those wearing special badges and black shoes can make it in this world. or else you're just worse than pond scum.' 'DO YOU WANT TO THROW AWAY YOUR LIFE?' if you answered no, to any of the following questions, then don't join c to the e to the d-a-r. and since chinese new year's coming up, isn't a wonderful time to publicise for our dear principal . 'our motto is to get everyone with their 6pointers and the band1 school award' 'and no we dont care about anything else' THANKYOU(this is a reply to your personal message) greypaper,HAHA. remember guangda,scoffs i miss the four of us, can we go out LIKE REALLY someday. -A- back to the top? - Tuesday, January 19, 2010 @ 5:14 PM ELGO. krystal and bimbolette made this new name for me and they think it's very sexy. HAHAHAHA. if i get a buck for every hour of insufficient sleep i get, i'll be having avogardo's number worth of cash now. -A- back to the top? iiiiiiii - Monday, January 18, 2010 @ 10:27 PM UGHHHHH): I FEEL LIKE A FCUKING RETARD WATCHING THOSE 5YEAR OLD DO LIKE WHAT 8 PIROUTTES AND SPLIT AND JUMP AND TURN AND TWIST AS THOUGH THEY'RE MADE OF JELLY))))): I WANT MY FLEXIBILITY BACK. BEFORE ARTS FEST, I MUST TRAIN TRAIN TRAIN TO DO LEFT LEG FRONT SPLIT AND YES, MY SIDE SPLIT WHICH I DEPROVED LIKE 4945837238 PERCENT): AHHH,i have no idea how to jazz and watching the last few hundreds of youtube vids(even though i was playing taylor swift's dancing with the stars at least two dozen times and it has nothing to do with jazz!!!)didn't really help. i'm duet-ing with yixin and we are both as lost as chickens in a shopping center. i need a study date for tomorrow and a stretching dateD: bitch. -A- back to the top? DNA - @ 7:23 PM AH.I LOST MY TAYLOR SWIFT MINI-CARDS)))))): IF ANYONE FINDS THEM PLEASE RETURN IT TO MEEE. 'if y'all talk somemore, then i tell natasha tan arrh!' HAHA,laoshi's hilarious. she's like using natasha to threathen me/simin/mich/HAHA,idk who else. heh,today's chinese was the best lesson the whole day. i hugged jynnlin, staggered back, tripped over celeste's shoes and fell onto the floor. in front of the whole class. MAJOR EMBARRASMENT. HAHA,and laoshi keeps on staring at me and simin cause we talk 99% during the lesson thus the threat above. DNA=DENISE AND ALGAE arghhh, bio's getting into my head. HAHA,spent half of dance singing 'i want your D, D-N-A' in the bad romance tune. tralalala- everyone thinks i'm weird but i think deoxyribonucleic acid is even weirder. bio lecture was a complete failure cause i was busy mumbling to haseena like 'i should remove 12 pairs of chromosones from my every cell and i'll be a banana' and praying hard we wouldn't be asked questions by mdm wong. -A- back to the top? fearless - Sunday, January 17, 2010 @ 10:19 PM JUST LOOK AT THAT SMILE!!!!! I SWEAR I'VE NEVER LOVED A GIRL LIKE HER BEFORE(YES,CEDARIANS INCLUDED). OKAY, I KNOW ITS GOING TO COME OUT LIKE THOSE PEOPLE WHO SWOON AND SIGH OVER KOREANS. TAYLOR SWIFT BEATS THEM HANDS DOWN. LIKE SERIOUSLY, CAN YOU WRITE/CO-WRITE TWO WHOLE ALBUMS WORTH OF SONGS(SHE FRICKIN' WROTE LOVE STORY ON HER BED WITHIN TWENTY MINUTES?!!!!)AND WRITE FOR OTHER PEOPLE AS WELL(KELLIE PICKLER!!!) ORGANIZE YOUR WHOLE AMERICA TOUR YOURSELF. A FRICKIN' NINETEEN YEAR OLD. SHE CAN PLAY THE CLARINEET(NOT RLY,HAHA), KEYBOARD, GUITAR AND SING DAMN WELL. SHE HAS 39484572IDEAS ON HOW TO ENTERTAIN PEOPLE LIKE ME(HER FANS)LIKE TRALALALA, AND SHE'S JUST LIKE ONE OF US. A HUMAN! A BLOND ONE, SOMEMORE. AND SHE DOESNT SCREW LIFE UP LIKE BRITNEY. SHE'S GORGEOUS. SHE'S COMPASSIONATE. SHE TREATS HER FANS AS THOUGH THEY'RE LONG-LOST FANS. AHHH, I WANT TO FLY TO AUSSIE TO SEE HER THIS YEAR)))))): HAHA,the taylor-swift-induced hallucination and hyperventilation came through when i was being bored and popped my t-swift platinum edition dvd into my comp and WOOHOO, IT WORKED. like after 1 whole month of futile effort to get the bloody thing to run, it friggggggin worked :DDDD so i was watching the footage, music vids, on the set with t-swift(!!!!!) and her fearless tour. walau, i was like crying halfway through the dvd and my mom thought i was crazy, i wasn't even watching some soapy korean drama, i was watching this 20year old blond kid being interviewed and the director shoving everyone around on the set of love story. hmmm, so this is a whole I-LOVE-TAYLOR-SWIFT post. no one every in my life has influenced me like this, to pick up guitar to play like a crazy mad alien(the skin from my three fingers dropped today so i have rly rly tender skin which bled again just now when i attempted to play the guitar with injured fingers)and to continue moving on with life even though i just feel like breaking down and not doing anything. her songs relate to me so much i feel as though i wrote them. SOUNDS CLICHE, but true. okay, i'm a happy girl today - had an ice-cream fight just now with my bro. we were like totally sumo-wrestling with a tub of ice cream on the floor. at the end i had what, ice cream on my ass and nose. HAHA, kids. 'i want to be ben10 when i grow up.' 'don't be ridiculous.' 'you're the one who wants to be an avatar and a guitarist when you grow up. so what's wrong. people can have dreams you know.' for times like this, being immature is one of the wisest things in the world. i wished i can be a REAL kid. like that day on my way to sch, saw this cedar primary kid blasting love story and teardrops on my guitar on her phone. HAHA, actually i was on the opposite side of the road but i heard taylor's angelic voice so i crossed over. and the girl was like singing her heart out even though she's somewhat tone deaf and that there's this crazy 15year old stalking her from behind. she's the kind that doesn't give a damn about what's around her. she only wants to be happy. i also want to be THAT kid. This love is difficult but it's real I'm not a princess This ain't a fairytale I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night Somebody tells you they love you, you're gonna believe them If you could see that I'm the one who understands you But I don't believe you baby like I did before I miss screaming and fighting and kissing in the rain It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone You take my hand and drag me headfirst, FEARLESS. -A- back to the top? - @ 11:40 AM GOOD MORNING WORLD. i swear i'm not going to write any more emo posts about how i'm going to commit suicide just because i didn't become an OAI or get an A1 for chem. HAHA. cause my sister convinced me that, life sucks, so just get over with it. heh, and she tells me there's no need to study at all(even though i think she's jealous that i'm smarter than her) btw, she failed three out of her 6subjects in olevels, and she's like what earning 25bucks an hour and shopping at zara, while here i am getting 5As for endyears and i shop at cotton on and eats hawker center food. HAHA. so this teaches me something: GRADES DON'T MATTER. and puh-lease, my sis is like another no-black-shoe,no-shiny-badge, no-nothing(actually everyone in my family member is like a failed leader! HAHA,this makes my 'choir sectional leader' look danm good) and yet she's like an awesome teacher to her kids can and all her students at the idk-what-sch she teachers at look up to her and all the parents think that she's awesome. and another thing: YOU DON'T NEED TO WEAR BLACK SHOES TO SUCCEED IN LIFE. HAHA,i(L)my sis. she totally cracks me up -my ultimate counseller. 'sang nila utama is the king of malaysia right?!' and she said in the i-know-i'm-very-smart kind of voice like puh-lease, SANG NILA UTAMA IS THE ONE WHO FOUNDED THE LION ON SINGAPORE. HAHA. and my sis took history as an olevel subject and FAILED IT. HAHAHAHAHAH. so from today onwards, i'm just going to make sure i'm a happy kid. who cares about frickin' Os, at most if i cannot become a doctor when i grow up, i'm going to fly to america and join some screwed-up band as a guitarist. woohoo, or i can aspire to be like my sis. teach kids and earn 25bucks per hour <:)))) 'because ignoring reality is the next big thing to changing it,' HAHA,and since homework is part of reality, i've secretly stashed my whole bunch of bio and chem worksheets back into my bag and convinced my mom that i'm done with my homework :DDDD oh,and with reference to the comic strip above, don't tell me about how the ostrich eventually got killed even though it stuck its head into the sand. HAHA,cause i'm not a frickin' ostrich. i'm a plant as well as an avatar. i have a tail and chlorophyll and i can run faster than people. so shhhhh. i think i'm overly high now cause the whole family abandoned me at home, SLEEPING while they happily go out jalan jalan at IKEA eating breakfast and never even takeaway meatballs for meeee): someone should buy me the subscription of the seventeen mag as a birthday present cause im broke and i want to read mags and books): school rules, loopholes. stupid spotchecks tomorrow! cause we're ain't going down without a fight, cedarians aren't that stupid to wear 1800s long lacy skirt fashions with footballers socks and ballerina-like buns and combed up hair. GOODLUCK PEOPLE<:) EUGENIA! HELLO YOU CUCKOO(: LET'S GO OUT SOON, LIKE I KNOW I'VE BEEN SAYING THIS FOREVER AND I TOTALLY PROCRASTINATED ABOUT OUR OUTING CAUSE I HAD CHEER+DANCE+BUSY PACKED HOLS BUT SERIOUSLY! :DDDD THANKS BTW, LUCY! HAHA, REMEMBER? LOUSY, LUCY? I SHALL CALL YOU LUCY FROM NOW ON. IDK! LETS GO ON A DANCE-LESS DAY(: -A- back to the top? polkadots- - Saturday, January 16, 2010 @ 4:41 PM HAHA.what i do on saturdays. 1030: decided that i will finish my homework 1040: zipped open my guitar bag and started spazzing like taylor swift with her i-like-to-flip-my-blond-hair thing 1200: tired. msn-ed dayna and asked her how to do chinese. she kind of gave me the answers! 1210: youtube-ed. 1230: realized that i was supposed to go get my chinese passage to do chinese hw. 1245: couldn't find the hw. 1300: found it. opened babelfish.com so i could translate my thoughts in chinese<:) i swear the translator is the best invention in the world! did i mention, for the let's-introduce-myself piece of chinese homework, i dumped my whole blog profile thing into the translator and copied it out. guess what, i got a C. HAHA. 1310: lunch. 1400: mom gave me a speaker cause she said you'll get ear cancer(?!)when you listen to headphones for a long time. HAHA. proof that i studied chem-you can used cobalt-60 to kill cancer cells!!! not that i want to. 1410: started blasting ke$sha, taylor swift on the speaker. OHMY,you know how my mom sings 'you belong with me'. HAHA,she only knows one line. 'i wears t-shirt, she wears long skirt', she'll look up from her newspaper to sing that one line and then go back to reading. major loser. HAHA,and the longskirt part totally reminded me about foo&nair and that there's spotcheck tmr tmr): so me and bro ended up singing 'i wear tshirt, she wears tshirt, come on everybody just grab a tshirt' and we ended ROFLing. 1500 stalked taylor swift on myspace. I LOVE COUNTRY MUSIC. tswift, miranda lambert, keith urban, carrie underwood, kellie pickler. uhuh,ohyeah. 1530 realized i told myself that i would finish my chem+bio+phy+eng+chinese+math hw today. 1545 finally started on ss. oh, and my ss homework is one parag only, on those grrrr. northen ireland-ers. 1600 finished ss. 1610 realized its my grandad's birthday today. 1615 ate ice-cream with my bro. 1630 spazzed with him over pri sch assesments and totally white-lied him about seclife being AWESOME and that you have v.little homework, un-bitchy teachers, and that life's great. LIES. what is the difference between temperature and heat. me: temperature has 1,2,3,4....10 letters! (only ltr did i realize it was 11)while heat has 4. bro: no!!! cause temperature is the degree of... me: TEMPERATURE STARTS WITH T!!! HEAT STARTS WITH A H!! bro: walau, i dont know how you top your class for science one. HAHA,i didn't mention to him that 1H2H, like hates our sci teachers everyyear. DOWN WITH THE LENG DYNASTY. epic man. ohmymummy, i'm looking at msn msg histories and i'm laughing my head off. HAHA,i remember this whole bunch of me+pling+doughnut.aka.dayna+eugenia+eleanor+celine+jy, eugenia was like the only sane one. the rest of us were like HAHA-ing every other sentences cause we were debating over whether there was d&t on monday(HAHA,i love the 'sry, i read the wrong week of the timetable' as an excuse for not bringing stuff)+whether should we do hw+hunting for mr.anil aka squirrels in fort canning(?!)+bring bear traps to trap anil the squirrel cause he will not fit into mouse traps(HAHA,jy's idea) okay, it's 1700 now): and i've only finished what, i bio wksht and 1 ss parag. and i'm left with math(BZZZ.i dun understand non-linear equations at all),cheena,chem and phy. ): HAHA,i'm still reading the ultra-blond 2H convo. we're speculating over miss ong 'attached' relationship status. HAHA,joshua sng is a two-timer. and what, miss ong used to work in the airport. omg, blond shit. and the 'lets-all-hop-outta-this-convo-tgt' which i think failed EPICLY. AH,i need to go out. i need a math study date): i need a dance date): i need an iceskating date): i need a macron supplier(DAPHNE HO YI SOMETHING, that's you) i need a let's-go-shop-for-presents partner(mich and vanessa, pls) bottomline: let's get out of this place. &i've uploaded the indigo outing pictures alrd!!! stop haunting me and leaving offline msges, grrr. ohyes, i'm kind of not looking forward to sch cause someone's angry with me(!!!!), not that she'll read this anyway, i'm sry i'm lied): oh&i dun want to have ss lessons cause mdm tan is like a horror movie. she freaks the hell out of me. but at least, i have celine tsang the one who holds my fingers gaily on the way back to class and my bio lab partners whom we know we are very failures at paying attention to mr chen. either we fall asleep, reading random chaps like mitosis or play air guitar and totally ignore ahchen. -A- back to the top? imma in a terrible fix - Friday, January 15, 2010 @ 3:47 PM when will it be my turn recording covers): ohwell, i guess one awesome side-effect of lonely hearts and grief is that i learn damn fast AND well, i spent the whole night not doing my homework instead playing 4hours on the guitar non-stop, and i learnt like should've said no, picture to burn, had it all, down and replay all in one night. and they weren't those easy peasy chicken shit kind of songs, it was hard): so now, i have blistered fingers. sch was like crap, no-life crap. the only excitement i had today was what, whining at jesslyn and begging her to tell the real thing behind 'sentosa primary school' and making fun of natasha's pencil cases. today was a trip science+double math+eng day, totally squeezed the remaining of my scarce brain cells. and i have 34958498594 homework this weekend. ): and for goodness sake, stop asking whether i'm a bloody instructor or not. NO,I'M NOT. and i don't know whether some people are really ignorant about it or they're rubbing salt into it. and i cannot stand her smug face. i'm rly considering ditching oac, like sprain my ankle rly badly go run 3km and get rly bad knee/ligaments problem and ta-da, stay at home to memorize the rest of my bio textbook. cause in my life, i've zip-lined twice, rockwall-ed once, ab-sailed thrice and done highE with enough memories to last me for a life. i have slight heartburns so the 'campers, finish your food in five minutes' kind of thing kind of tortures me at the same time. plus, my class is like deader than corpses. i wished there was such a 'reading club' in cedar, then i'll go in there and become vice-president. cause reading is one of things in life i can't screw up. -A- back to the top? it's so typically me- - Thursday, January 14, 2010 @ 7:52 PM Psychological theories of crying emphasize on the relationship of crying to experience of percieved helplessness, ostensibly because the person feels powerless or unable to influence what is happening. HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIMBERLY!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIMIN THE PIG!!! The only leadership position I'd ever have in my life is like what, choir sectional leader? Never worn black shoes, never had special badges, never been the apple in the teacher's eyes. The only friend I'd ever had in my life is myself. No besties, no clique, no one that I could ever tell my secrets to. The only thing I can succeed in my life is to die, which I hope I can actually complete it. No awesome musical talent, no genius deoxyribonucleic acid, no long-legs-make-me-an-athlete thing. Welcome to my world. No one in my class got caught for spotcheck, I'm like what the hell, even secones got caught. What is on the cover of my chem and bio notebook: ALGAE I self-study because my teachers are like sleeping pills. I think I got scolded alot of times during dance today. -A- back to the top? just walk away and don't look back - - Tuesday, January 12, 2010 @ 7:48 PM someone needs to teach me how to stop crying cause salt water will make my guitar strings oxidise, my eyelashes droop and my hypersensetive skin to become dry. or perhaps i should just operate on myself and slice off my tear ducts. have you ever broken a rib before, that's how much it hurts. and i've gotten a fair share of cardiac problems myself to know how the heart aches. i love doing my physics homework. all i need to know is that the refractive index is the ratio between speed of light in air and speed of light in that optical medium, ratio between true and apparent depth, ratio between sin-i over sin-r. and i don't need to think about anything else. I(L)ALIAH(: thankyou, you're the first one who actually somewhat successfully taught me the manipulation of the stupid sin-i and sin-r crap. even mr goh couldn't, HAHA,you're an awesome tutor even though that 1.67x10^24 incident was dumb, -A- back to the top? you're the one who makes me laugh and cry, but i cry more often though- - Monday, January 11, 2010 @ 8:25 PM HAHA,i print screened this like what, yesterday and i'm still looking at the same wikipedia page now): can't believe i'm saying this but yes, science can be a bitch at time. like damn it, i can't picture the xylem tissue is actually make of cells. like seriously, and my bio teacher's explanation doesn't help a SINGLE BIT, he only helps with my insomia i swear. and i missed today's combined chem lecture and i have like only two percent of what relative molecular mass and the stupid avogardo's constant is. ): 1. i need an awesome senior who is awesome enough to let me ask her questions(i'm allergic to tutors, i actually do better without them.HAHA.that explains why i'm such a failure tutor myself.) 2. congrats libing(: she should totally write a book on HOW TO GET A1s, all the kiasu kids in singapore + their parents will like her book a #1 bestseller,heh. but seriously, 9A1s?! i can't even get 5): 3. how come almost every sec4 has like an A for cheena olevels, that doesn't really help on my pressure levels that laoshi created after cheena. 4. i should stop talking about studies. the side effects of being a trip science student): 5. my nerve cells are like working at the 3.0 x 10^8 (I SWEAR TALKING IN SCIENCE IS THE RESULT OF READING TOO MUCH BIO TEXTBOOKS AND MEMORIZING MY PHYSICS NOTES,i hate myself) 6. i want to transfer class badly): even though i'll miss chin and mr goh)))))): BUT STUPID KRYSTAL, HOW COME YOU CAN TRASNFER TO 3I?!!!! i don't mind being in any class that krystal is in cause we're both 24/7 entertainers for each other, i don't 3H OR 3A, at least it's better than having my form teacher picking on me every single free second she has of her life. 7. PEYLING WANTS TO MARRY JACKIE CHAN WHEN SHE GROWS UP. i told the class i wanted to marry taylor swift and i think everyone thinks that i'm a lesbian now): 8. i absolutely CANNOT tolerate messy notebooks>:( i get very frustrated and began tearing the pages out,heh. that's why my books always run out of pages so fast. i'm going to rewrite my notebook cause one page is like has WORDS FLOATING ABOVE THE BLUE LINE, and i'm irritated. 9. JARULE IS A NICE GIRL(: 10. ELEANOR'S SISTER, THAT NEW MISS PHUA DAO-ED ME THREE TIMES IN A ROW TODAY>:( she used to be very nice to me, can. 11. TOMORROW'S HEIGHT AND WEIGHT BUT I'M IN NO MOOD TO DO CARDIO CAUSE I'M HAVING SHOULDER ACHES): i pray that i've grown to 163cm alrd <:) yeah, my mom's pms-ing these few days and she's behaving like a werewolve on a full moon night, pssst, i'm being very kind not to curse her. grr, but ohwell, i NEED and MUST convince her to let me out on wednesday or else mich and vanessa is going to slaughter me >:( I'M THE AVATAR PRINCESS. HAHA. YOU MUST BOW DOWN TO ME AND ESCORT ME TO THE ASTHETICSTUDIO AND YOU MUST SAY 'BYE BYE AVATAR PRINCESS' WHEN I WALK INTO THE ROOM. HAHA.ohmy, i swear it's damn hilarious. i totally forced wanting, vanessa and regina to do those commands for ME. awh, i upgraded. no more green puny stuff. i'm now 10feet tall, and i'm BLUE. so i think i'll look like a freak in my sch uniform. who wants to watch avatar with me again, i'm going to drag those stupid anti-avatar people along to cathay with ME(: ARGH, I HATE BEING A TRIP SCI KID. now i'm like totally paranoid of teachers scolding me for not doing homework. i remembered i used to be sucha FEARLESS kid where i think i still haven't done/handed in the math homework he gave in last year term 1 and the subsequent homeworks that follow. HAHA, and i still owe laoshi stuff i think. heh, and now what, i finish homework in school can. GRRR, WHAT KIND OF KID ARE YOU NOW): today's a boring post cause cedar makes you a boring kid. i wonder why people in general are so fascinated with netballers. i bought 4vampire academy books. and i have ZERO with me now. ): i'm like some vampire-academy-borrowing-station. -A- back to the top? let's roll up the windows and sing country songs - Sunday, January 10, 2010 @ 6:12 PM K SAYS: MO NO CAH CHNG TOUCH BUTT SO CUTE MAN EH WHERE’S ALGAE O.o [NICOLE] SAYS: idk lei busy with her vivian and mingzhen and god knows who K SAYS: NATASHA. MY Natasha. [NICOLE] SAYS: MISS YANG HAHAHA eh stop it la krystal you’re mine and i’m yours no others! ALGAE SAYS: WHAT? VIVIAN? MINGZHEN? AND WHAT’S WITH THE IM YOURS?! [NICOLE] SAYS: god knows who! HAHAHA where’s everybody? MOMMYYYY IT’S OVERRRRRRRRR! K SAYS: hahhahha WHAT?!?! ALGAE SAYS: ME K SAYS: I SHALL BLOG ABOUT THAT WHOLE PART SO FUNNY WE ALL TALKING BOUT DIFF STUFF [NICOLE] SAYS: HUH WHAT HAHHAHAHA K SAYS: hahaha ok GOOD. I REST MY CASE. [NICOLE] SAYS: omg we damn lame sia AGAEEEE i need oxygen photosynthesise quick! K SAYS: HAHHAHA GO BREATH INSIDE ALGAES BRAIN ITS EMPTY ONLY GOT AIR [NICOLE] SAYS: HAHAHAHA no la can’t breathe there its wood HAHA.i think i just realized that they were calling me a woodblock and i'm silently shaking with laugher in front of my computer now. yes, the three of us are like retards spamming pictures on facebook and stupid conversation with all three of us as blur as cuckoos, i think i was the blur-est though. I MISS 2H life sucks, i'm currently being grounded under my mom on the context that 'ive threwn away old textbooks that can be reused' so i can't go buy presents for someone someone and attend 2H's combined birthday party. and i wanted to upload some of our nonsensical pictures like not-so-secretively-eating-in-class and a whole bunch of people crunched up over an ipodtouch playing tap tap. but apparently both blogger and facebook are being major bitches and its taking longer than forever to get them up on the net. sighs, i really really miss 2H. how many times have i said this, like krystal said- no one can ever beat 2H in changing in and out of uniform in record time, making the most noise, being the most nonsense and stuff that don't really please our teachers etc. it realy sucks to be in a no-life triple science class. boohoo,i'm damn bored. i just finished my emath homework even though i couldn't solve half the equations. played guitar half the day, fingers bled. couldn't play anymore. i was THAT bored that i began stirring my mom's porridge and began screaming in an animated voice, 'TSUNAMI! THE TSUNAMI IS GOING TO SWEEP EVERYONE AWAY!' gosh, even my brother was asking me waht my 'porridge tsunami' was going to sweep away apart from the metal rims of the pot. i kind of ignored that comment and began lifting a ladle of porridge and threw it back into the pot, screaming 'ITS SNOWING!' okay, i think i know i'm retarded. got scolded by mom for playing with food. then i began dialling my mom's phone using the house phone continuously, 'WHAT IN THE WORLD DO YOU THINK YOU'RE TRYING TO DO?' my mom was srly very pissed. 'i like the ringtone.' i think i forgot to mentino i set my mom's phone to some taylor swift song. yeah, so i think i can totally write a book on: WHAT TO DO WHEN YOU'RE EXTREMELY BORED. the weekend's ending, damn it, i have to drag my fat ass outta bed tomorrow morning like even before i see the sun over the HDB flats and take the MRT, fall alseep on the MRT before i wake up to the 'NEXT STATION, SENGKANG.' and take the train back to potong pasir. i officially declare that i'm going to self-study bio and chem. so stop asking me to tutor you, i myself need help. now, i'm dropping my picks into the hole of the guitar then turning the guitar over shaking the whole instrument like hell just to get the pick out of it. translation: I'M BORED. and i've finished reading every single book in my house(not really, i didn't touch the baby or the chinese books)and i'm one-third through my bio textbook so shut up. bitch. i want to go to the library tomorrow, i think my books are due and i have to pay fines. ): -A- back to the top? handsome and awesome.HAHA - Saturday, January 9, 2010 @ 7:41 PM falling in love will change my life, for the worse i swear. i hate the new you, the cold, unsmiling you. i miss the late-nights, sweet comments, forgiving, awesome, open you. okay, so today's a somewhat i-dreaded-it-at-first-but-i'm-relishing-the-memories kind of a day, i think i totally screwed my instructor interview with three apparent, mean-looking pair of eyes staring at me, trying to see through my inner soul or something like that. well, they shot questions like bullets on a firing range and i answered like crap, so there goes it. i blasted the whole thing. had fun the later day though escorting leader vivian around singapore,HAHA. I LOVE YOU NICOLE, it's okay if you don't love me back, i'll follow you from earth to pandora next time kays, P.S i want to be an avatar when i grow up(and i don't get it why everyone looks at me with a does-she-belong-to-the-institute-of-mental-health face when i say that) jurong east popular, i still can laugh at myself now. 'i'm a streetsmart barnacle,' if getting-around-singapore was a subject, i'll get A1 i swear. how come nobody knows where the hell is dover, oh, and yes finally, i've finally given up on adpating to my new environments, making new friends and etc. (i made new friends today! carin and cara. both of them are like full-time entertainers) i hate my class, my form teacher, all my other subject teachers apart from my math, physics and chinese teacher(even though she humilates us in front of the whole class. DOUGHNUT,heh) and if i had a choice now, i'll gladly transfer to 3N(pure lit so what, it doesn't kill me.i love books anyway,)and take a science as an extra subject. studying bio with my current teacher is the same as reading the textbook, or even worse. at least i don't fall alseep. like seriously, i hate the you're-a-triple-science-class-and-henceforth-you-must-be-damned-well-smart-and-six-pointers and all that shit. what the difference between trip sci-ers and double sci-ers, they're just stupid humans who most of them regretted joining this secondary school. and it doesn't help with the transiton when my class is a close-minded, absolutely hates new and creative stuff. and my class is literally so damn quiet that i've taken to either sleeping or doing math homework during school, LIFE SUCKS. and the only thing i look forward to is meals with krystal, the only thing that keeps me going. ohyeah, and dancers too(even though natasha claims that i'm being bullied half the time) NHE-TAA-SHER, this is for the senior who owes me a letter like for a very very long time already,heh. and don't worry, you'll be on the cover of seventeen and not IT for dummies(don't listen to jolene,heh) i have emath homework, tons of files and exercise books and presents to buy. i wished money was elastic, we're going to learn mitosis for olevels,yipee, heh,anaphase, prophase, it's all mentioned in twilight in the bio class scene y'know. HAHA,i'm damn excited to be learning the same things as bella and edward. ITS A CRIME NOT TO WATCH AVATAR. and that means, YOU, vanessa. i'm still in love with that blue-alien-girl and the ultra-chio flying birds. 'people who have less than 5hours of sleep a day tend to have more suicidal thoughts' perfect explanation for my frequent occurances of what's-the-possibility-of-me-dying-if-i-jump-down-the-building, i have 4hours of sleep a day, sleep at 1am, wake up at 5.30 the next. secondary school education, i swear. i wished you were a stupid, short person who sucks big time. why are you so awesome. -A- back to the top? avatar- - Friday, January 8, 2010 @ 10:13 PM the worst accident i'd ever had in my life was ramming into a bike while on a bike, flying off that rusty piece of metal and scraping myself against the road. spiky tar road. i got a two-inch scar from the side of my eye all the way down to my lips along with swollen lips, ulcers, bruises and cuts. i thought i looked like a purple tomato for that one month. but my scar -it's really ugly-took one and a half year to completely heal and disappear. but it didn't take me more than two weeks to regain my confidence to start cycling all over again, recklessly. i have fallen/rolled/snowballed/skimmed/tumbled off half of the esclator and ended up with cuts and bruises. but it didn't take me more than half an hour to begin sitting on the esclator and treating it like those inflated balloon castles, for me, i can take as many physical accidents as anyone would want me to take. i can get run down by a car, slip into coma, transfer into intensive car unit, and at the end of one year, come back to school and maybe be on my way for my next accident and i'll never become scared. but if you just ram me hard enough with one emotional accident, good luck, it's a scar for life. people always joke about me being crazy and calling the institute of mental health for fun and stuff right, but what i don't think is funny about that is i've actually been in there before, as a patient. for real. the doc says, i'm the kind of person who keeps everything to myself and even if someone stays with me 23hours and 59minutes, that person wouldn't even get an inside peek to more than ten percent of what i'm thinking about. cause in that one minute, is where the other 90percent all comes out. and if someone stays with me twenty-four-seven, i'll just bottle everything up. and till now, i haven't exploded. haven't. so you think that you know me, you think that just because you've seen me laugh and breakdown and pissed before, it means that you know me, you don't. not a single bit. okay,enough of those sombre shit. i had a dream last night, that i was late for my instructor interview and i totally screwed it up, like a major failure, i woke up in the middle of the night, panting and crying. and that's the second nightmare i've ever had in my life. and so, i've also learnt that i've set alarm for 7am on 3alarm clocks and so, i will never be late. heh. my favourite subjects are chem, bio and ss/geog. and it happens that now, the only subjects/subject teachers that can keep awake are math and physics. the subjects that i hate the most- happen to be the most entertaining, i(L)miss chin, i(L)mr goh - heh,he's damn cute and awesome at refractive index etc. i fell asleep during biology, yawned as though there's no tomorrow during chem and kind of got freaked out during ss/geog. don't even mention the languages, so basically, it sums up that school sucks. especially when the disipline mistress expects you to wear victorian-length skirts with football socks. talk about looking prim and proper. 'our school is known for our disipline,' heh,then how come i have a bunch of sec1 friends who refused to join cedar because they've heard that the school sucks big time, dance auds were today, some awesome sec1 girl totally warmed up my heart like i caught her next to the water cooler practing and as well as failing miserably and no one else, dancer or classmate bothered to help her. so me, being the usual kind/compassionate/loving senior went over to help. yeah,so she needed alot of help to grasp everything and she was very afraid of me leaving her side and doing the dance on her own, but as i taught some more she gained her own confidence and i thought my heart swelled to a size of a frickin' mammoth, and even though i know she ain't the standard to join dance, but she's the awesomest dancer ever. she never fails to stop trying, for one thing i know. i(L)physics notebook, it's really pretty even though i got scolded by miss chin for ant-like handwriting, but it's so awesome with all the purple ray diagrams and neat annotations, heh, i watched avatar and it's damn awesome, i cried more than one third of the movie, my shirt was kind of damp by the time i left the cinema and i bit my nails alot during the fighting. i think the ney-something,that girl alien is frickin' chio, and the birds were very pretty- and i love the way james cameron made sure all small details were there, like how the avatars needed tails to gain awesome balance like that, how the triceratops-looking stuff were brought back because they were resistent to gunpowder. i hate the person who invented gunpowder. and i'm going to buy the dvd, it contains the deleted sex scene-HAHA,i don't buy it because of that, okay, but the making out was really sweet and i cried like a waterfall for that scene. who knew avatars could french kiss, wow. 'i'm a barnacle,' heh,henny and celine came back today,woohoo. wish me goodluck for tomorrow, i'm going to need all the luck i can get and aishu, don't destroy my skirt.i'll destroy you. -A- back to the top? everyday's a bad day- - Tuesday, January 5, 2010 @ 9:25 PM thankyou<:) thankyou kimberly/natasha/zhihui/lee/lingyi/nicole for all the sweet awesome smses<:) thankyou natasha/zhihui for the 'you must be thick-skinned to fight for what you want' talk <:) thankyou lee for you 'awesome' advice with the 'shit happens' <:) thankyou kimberly for 5smses long sms-it's the longest i've recieved-and i'm going to learn to be as sweet as you<:) thankyou lingyi for the encouragement, it did make a difference <:) thankyou nicole for your nonsense theory which only succeeded in thinking what on earth does lee does to you juniors,heh <:) heh,the interview's on saturday and i think i'm going to be the first one>:( it's already driving me crazy, cannot screw this one up, it's as important as finals>:( okay,so school was slightly better today even though i had to face the wrath of my form teacher who doesn't even believe that i, algae, can become a sports rep and she gives the position to a person who doesn't look like the type who can get gold for nafa, not that i'm being mean but seriously, how will she lead jogging if she cannot even pass her 2.4, but she deserves a shot at it since she's forced into the role- grrr, and i'm sitting next to a PRC scholar and it's like one chicken and duck - my chinese is so poor, her english is so poor, i just talk to gayle/peixuan/celine/huiying who are all around me. i hate this, is avatar really that good, cause cathay's 3D's like booked this whole week, including weekends and i can only do advance bookings for next tuesday's show onwards, gahh. i miss 2H, i miss krystal/nicole/flower/nadiah/youpay/aishu/eleanor/jarule/aliza/AND THOSE TWO STUPID IP GIRLS WHO ARE ONLY STARTING SCHOOL NEXT WEEK>:( -A- back to the top? hi - - Monday, January 4, 2010 @ 10:56 PM this pretty much sums up the whole of the first-day-0f-school that everyone was so jittery and excited about on the 3jan, i officially miss staying up late till three, waking up at two in the afternoon and nobody's going to scold you, i can spend the whole day watching the jewel in the place or just mimicking taylor swift's guitarist and i don't need to give a damn about what's happening in the rest of the world. but apparently, life doesn't go the way you want it to, it's 11.18PM now, i'm doing my chinese homework on the old computer table, my eyes teary-red, fatigue's catching up on me but i must force those bloody eyelids to open and my brain to work on the composition as well as vanessa's instructor nomination paragraph which is very important to her, well, no one gets how important is it to me, that had been the magic word ever since i was a sec1 going on sec2, it's still magic thinking about the possibility of it actually happening it to me, but life sucks, you never want you want- i've got nothing to show, don't i? so what's there to watch. at least dick has a jane, i have nothing. and even if i jump, who in the world will attend my funeral, disappointment comes along with expectations, i shouldn't have never expected anything at all, after all, i know best i don't do things right, i never do. someone please remind me to put on the nothing's-going-on-if-anyone-asks-me-i'll-just-say-life's-awesome mask tomorrow, -A- P.S algae is a green plant that can withstand both withering high and blistering cold temperatures but it doesn't mean, it stand withstand you. to think that i've thought so highly of you and yet, you just happen to be another usual human. P.P.S my reasons for being an instructor are as pure as mineral water. my reasons for being an instructor does not include words like 'instructors' or 'leaders' in it. my reaaons for being an instructor, even i myself don't know. P.P.P.S it's late, i think i'm just going to indulge in something to drink and fall alseep without tossing and turning in the bed. life sucks, take drugs. i'm somewhere there already, the girl who seemed flawless broke the girl who seemed so strong crumbled the girl who always laughed it off cried the girl who never stopped trying- finally gave up P.P.P.S and i'm nowhere near perfect, so why am i not allowed to break done, cry and not want to get on with life. and i think i know i got a reason why, i'm called algae for a reason. i survive for thousands of years on rocks with meagre sunlight and water, and now i'm just caught in this stupid political and societal system, i can get out of it. of course i can. can i? back to the top? welcome to hollywood- - Friday, January 1, 2010 @ 10:47 AM would you risk you not being able to do the things you love just to make sure that your loved ones can do theirs? my brother with his stupid/dumb-ass/act-cool marathon and/or triathlon obession has finally ended like his right thumb permanently immbolised(HAHA,i make it sound as though it's like dommsday, 2012, 2more years!)and yeah, he has to go under the knife and all that doc's bullshit crap. and i also just realized you can't write without your thumb, don't believe me? go hold a bloody pen WITHOUT your thumb, i tried that when my bro told me and yeah, you can't unless you grab the pen like a knife in the waiting to stab someone position when your hand's next to your ear, and the thing is: he's a (history)teacher and he can't fucking write and the pure hist students should know better how much miss lizah writes, and my poor brother. me&my sister&my niece are this awesome bunch of girls in the family who adore ballet like seriously(i don't exactly love dance with all my life, but i'm fascinated by pointe shoes and tutus etc.) and my six-year-old niece is like this major ball of energy everytime you ask her to dance for you and her teacher says she has alot of potential(don't know whether she's sucking up to my sis or is it real,) but the point is: my scrawny-lovable-ball-of-fluff can't dance cause she has two left feet and flat foot so her balance sucks to the ultimate and my sis puts her on pyhsio so she can walk properly, it's frickin' poor thing, it's you're like so fcuking young and you're deprieved of even being to WALK and you can't DANCE and you absolutely hate it and you feel like screaming at the adults, 'i thought you can said childhood was the best, and i'm stuck like that,' but even worse, she doesn't even know why she can't dance and why she's always lagging behind even though she puts in three times more effort than the rest of the class- BUT I WILL, i will give up what i want to do in my life just to make sure my brother and niece can live their lives right, one screwed up life is better than deprieving my selfless, doting brother of his job and somewhat hooby and my awesome niece of her dream of being a ballerina, and so what i can no longer play the guitar or dance or run(yes, i(L)running)ever again, it's worth it. and i tell you, love is not fcuking selfish. it's selfless. and i will donate my right thumb/feet to my bro/niece because i(L)them but donation of my limbs doesn't rly work cause yeah, >:( gahhh, it's so loser and stupid and dumbfcuk blogging on newyear's-pause, HAPPY NEW YEAR GUYS, YOU'RE ONE YEAR OLDER AND HAPPY TRANSITING FROM PRIMARY SCHOOL TO SECONDARY SCHOOL(YOU'RE GOING TO NEED ALL THE LUCK YOU CAN GET), FROM SECONE TO SECTWO(HOMEWORK LOAD IS INCREASED LIKE THREE THOUSAND PERCENT?)SECTWO TO SECTHREE(I NEED HELP MYSELF)AND THE SEC-FOUR-TO-BES(GO SMASH THAT STUPID EXAM IN ITS FACE) okay, this is much cheaper than mass-sms-ing the whole world since i sms-ed indigo last night and didn't get a single reply>:(-anyway, back to topic it's 11.19AM and the whole family's at IKEA reinventing the hse while i'm stuck at home doing ss/chinese which i'm apparently not doing since i'm typing on the comp. i bet half of the world is like celebrating like there's no tomorrow while the other half is like ME, no life-stuck at home doing things you don't want to do bzzzz, but nevermind i think i got the fill of fun last night alrd, mom decided to bring me out in the end despite being grounded to marina bay for the countdown but like, what the hell, three quaters of singapore which amounts to amout(4.8mil divided by 4 times 3)do the math yourself, erh, 3.6million people were like squeezing at city hall mrt/suntec/marina square/every single inch of space possible to inhabit those party goers dressed in little black dresses and their mascara running like the waterfalls. so i think i kind of gave up waiting for fireworks after shopping, the crowd was like livid, but bought new stuff and currently i'm alrd looking out chinese new year clothes <:) new clothes make algae happy, new shoes also make algae happy, so you see, it's very easy to make me happy just drop me at a mall(prefably orchad)and stuff twenty bucks in my wallet i'll be as happy as the alvin and the chipmunks who don't seem to have a single bit worry in their minds. ohandyeah, there's like two more days(not counting today)to school reopen, thanks for the downer, lingyi>:( and i don't want to go back to school, >:( even though i enjoy back-to-school shopping alot, speaking of which i haven't bought pencil case and track shoes and pe shirt yet >:( nevermind, mum's going to rent a car/or an 'automobile' so she says so we're going around singapore during the weekend(and i'm going to LIE that i've finished my homework), <:) i want to buy a new sewing machine so i can alter my skirt<:) but how do you even alter a skirt?! hmm,that's why youtube and google are invented for a reason:Di(L)the internet, heh,AISHU: you lousy person, i know you want to be reunited with the person who just chopped her hair as much as i don't want it. so much for mutual understanding you idiot, what happened to your blog. locked it and never invite me, ARGH?! ohmymummy, this post is like some sort of literature essay about love(HAHA)and then some english summary about how i spent my newyearseve and how i'm spending my DISASTEROUS newyears>:( oh,it's 2010. 2moreyears of living guys, till 2012 so live it like there's no tomorrow<:) -A- back to the top?	affiliates ♥Aksone♥ ♥Aliah♥ ♥Aishu♥ ♥Atikah♥ ♥Amadea♥ ♥Amanda♥ ♥Anita♥ ♥Beverly♥ ♥Boonboonhuihui♥ ♥Carin♥ ♥Celastine♥ ♥Celine♥ ♥Celine♥ ♥Chewan♥ ♥Christina♥ ♥Clara♥ ♥Conny♥ ♥Crystal♥ ♥Daphne♥ ♥Dayna♥ ♥Denise♥ ♥Eugenia♥ ♥Evangelyn♥ ♥Flower♥ ♥Geraldine♥ ♥Haining♥ ♥Huijie♥ ♥Huiying♥ ♥Jelaine♥ ♥Irene♥ ♥Iznayye♥ ♥Jarule♥ ♥Jeremy♥ ♥Jiaying♥ ♥Jolene♥ ♥Kimberly♥ ♥Kor Woong♥ ♥Krystal♥ ♥Laura♥ ♥Lingyi♥ ♥Lynnette♥ ♥Maika♥ ♥Mardiana♥ ♥Minying♥ ♥Nadene♥ ♥Nadiah♥ ♥Natasha♥ ♥Nicole♥ ♥Miss Claire♥ ♥Pamphila♥ ♥Plingy♥ ♥Sarah♥ ♥Vanessa♥ ♥Xinya♥ ♥Yingyi♥	credits Layout: Nic ole Inspiration: Taylor Swift Color Codes: Html Color Codes monthly archive » July 2008 » August 2008 » September 2008 » October 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